Characters: V/L and Kendell behind door.
Disclaimer: I don't own them RT does I just borrow from genius to inspire momentary brilliance.
Spoliers: Through Episode 20 WiSW
Summary: 1303 Words. What might have happened after Episode 20.
Outside Logan Echolls Suite at the Neptune Grand.
Logan stood stunned watching Veronica become smaller as the elevator doors began to slide shut.
How could he have so many possibilities and then none in a matter of seconds? He wanted so badly to invite her to the promreal Prom. It was almost serendipitous that Prom was cancelled because by inviting her to his alterna-prom was like asking her with out the risk. Things had been good, civil, even a little flirty lately.
I have drank to forget many things, but this? Why this? I havent been able to get her out of my head. I had begun to feel weighted down with all the could have beens. My dad, Lilly, VeronicaI used to be angry with her. She hurt me. I know I hurt her too, but I just never thought we would...could get to this moment. It certainly wasnt the way I would have pictured it. The impromptu dance invitation at the sadie hawkins dancethen last nightGod I wish I could remember. I was doing fine. She hated me and I pretended not to care. It is getting harder to do that.
She said I told her we were Epic. Even though I dont remember saying it I certainly feel it.
Logan felt tinier and tinier as she walked down the hallway like some abstract representation of perspective.
All I remember is Stop filled with daggers as she made her retreat her eyes burning holes in my bare chest even though they were filled with tears.
Kendall stayed inside the suite surprisingly having enough sense to say nothing. My emotional response to Veronica standing there in my door waywas something she had never seen from me before. I wonder if she even felt like that before. Maybe she was in as much shock as I was. Of all the times of her to drop by. I had made it clear to her we werent going to have sex any more.
Not that it matters but, if any night I would have been an easy mark for Kendall it would have been last night. Alone, drunk, at my senior alterna-prom ha! When I saw her I just mubbled and asked her to make some coffee asking her why she let herself into my suite and bedroom at 7am this morning...It is almost as if I knew something had happened lat night something intense... without really remembering, and I didnt want to jeopardize it. Damn! I would give every cent I had to buy a glimpse of the events that brought Veronica to my door this morning.
What am I still doing here?...I ran to the stairwell hoping to beat the elevator to the first floor. Suddenly, I am taking steps 2 at a time. My bare feet slapping on the cold concrete. 15.14.12. I began to wish I had paid more attention in math so I could calculate how much time I needed to make up. 10.8..6.Please let some one else stop the elevator....4..2..I burst out the door stubbing my toe on the door jam and hopped out into the lobby. I turned as I cradled my foot to see the elevator doors slowly open... A man followed by a woman streamed out into the lobbyshe wasnt there. The doors slide open all the way and I saw a sneaker! I started to walk toward the elevator. She stepped into view as I swept into the car taking her shoulders in my hands to keep her from leaving as the doors slid shut. She tried to wrest free to hit the door open button. I was a man with a mission and I beat her hand to the panel instead hitting the stop button. I heard my voice say the word written on the button as I pushed it."Stop!" Firing back at her the words she used earlier on me.
She looked tired. As I repeated the words as a request, Please, stop. How can one moment last night change things so significantly. One moment that made you think about us ...me... just to have another moment filled with assumption change that so quickly?
Why did I come here? she asked as if begging for an answer.
I suspect because one of us doesnt need to be plied with alcohol to express themselves. I said acknowledging my part in these last few minutes.
Logan why Kendall? she asked as more tears fell.
No, Not KendallYoualways you my voice trailed off as my hands moved to cup her face. New tears were in her eyes and mine.
I dont know what I said to you last night about us. I have to admit it had to have been poetic and free of my usual sarcasm to get you to think about usagain. But, I dont need to know what I said. You just need to hear. Hear what I am saying now. I dont want to wait for enough time to passhoping you will comeback to me. I dont want to just be your partner in crime. The guy who will act foolish on your behalf, or in spite of how I feel about you. I dont want to pretend that our current pattern of snark and run is enough for me. In three months you may leave Neptune and never speak to me again. But, now, right now, I am starting a pattern of staying. I am not going to stop anymore. We may not make it V but I am no longer going to stop myself from telling you how I feel. I wont stop myself anymore. I wont stop myself from doing this
Logan kissed her quickly. He didnt want her to have time to move away. His knees almost gave way underneath him. God I miss those lips. Logan pulled his lips away slightly. Old habits die hard. Old patterns of stopping threaten to hold him back.GoGoGo then he pushed his lips hard against hers. His tongue flickering against her soft trembling lips. Her tears were salty in contrast to the sweet taste of her mouth. His hands found their way to my chest and pushed me away. But, it wasnt a stop but a slow down. He broke way still cupping her face his thumbs wiping away her most recent tears.
No more stopping Veronica. After a moment she responded
O.K. but can we agree not to stop anymore elevators?
Her hand had made its way to the red emergency stop button but, waited for my response. My hand covered hers.
On one condition. No more assumptionsNo more leaving first and asking questions never. Promise me you will always give me the chance to show you I deserve your trust.
That is a scary promise to make Logan.
I am okay with scary if you are. I smiled the best I will keep you safe smile I could muster. She pressed the button then turned her hand over to lace her fingers with mine.
Scary is okay, huh? She asked still not quite sure.
I will protect you from the boogie man. I smiled at her.
Who will protect me from you Logan? I squeezed her hand.
Who will protect me from you Veronica? Both questions went unanswered
The doors slid open and Logan looked down at their hands and back at the full lobby in front of them. Veronica moved toward the opening first slowly pulling Logan out after her. As they walked toward the entrance Logan stopped.
Ronnie, I dont have any shoes
Dont worry I am driving. She smiled.
I think I will be a little chilly in your convertible without a shirt?
Well then I will just have to find a way to keep you warm. She pulled him close and they walked out the Neptune Grand in to the sunny streets of Neptune arm and arm.
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