Secrets (wip)

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Posts: 57 (06/07/06 23:18:26) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Tags : None Title: Secrets (Part 1) Author: Trixx Pairing/Character: Logan/Veronica Rating: NC-17 (in parts) Summary: It started with a secret that turned into two and spiralled her life out of her control. Spoilers/Warnings: Eventually there will be spoilers for season two, but not as of yet. Spoilers for the complete first season. The fic will eventually be NC-17 for sexual content. Have you ever looked back on your life and realised the moment it all changed? The moment that things went from bad to worse to twilight zone? Lilly bounced around, smiling and laughing, I could almost see the joy radiating off her. God Lilly, I see the Prozacs working. I smiled at her, laughing at her antics. High on life Veronica Mars! She trilled, smirking at me. Ive got a secret. A good one. Our heads turned at the same time as our Pep squad advisor told us to get back to work. Lilly flounced away with a small smile and a discreet, later. I knew from the small smile on her face that the secret was going to be big. I didnt realise it would change my life forever. You may think Im being a drama queen. Regular teenaged angst right? What secret could Lilly have that could possibly be that big? If youre asking that question, then you dont know Lilly Kane. She made it her lifes purpose to rattle the cage. Ive got a secret. Lilly sing songed as she lay back on my bed grinning from ear to ear. Yes I know now spill! New lover? Old lover? Did you and Logan finally get back together? Breathless with excitement I bounced on the bed next to her. Well as a matter of fact I have TWO secrets. Which one do you want first? She smirked, batting her baby blue eyes at me. Secretive Lilly was a dangerous Lilly. Well considering I have no idea as to what the secrets pertain, you better just tell me both. I grinned at her, batting my own eyes right back. Id learned a thing or two, being friends with Lilly was always good for lessons in being coy. One. I know someone who has a crush on you. She smirked as I blushed. Lilly was always taking great pride in my discomfort. And two? I know why Donut broke up with you. My breath caught in my throat. Why. Thats all Id wanted to know was why. Two. Tell me Lilly. Its another girl right? He wants another girl? Was it cause I wouldnt go all the way? Its something worse right? Something horrible? My imagination was running wild, girls hanging all over Duncan, touching him where I wouldnt. Stop. Lillys voice came out sounding stern, before she patted me gently on the shoulder. He thinks our parents have been having an affair. She stated it boldly. No smirk, no smile, no little laugh to let me know it was a joke. Just the words that cut me to the core. Our parents? What? I couldnt wrap my mind around it. Lilly had to be mistaken. Im sorry Veronica, Celeste she showed me the pictures when I wouldnt stop badgering Duncan about his reasons. They your mom and my Dad have been having an affair since high school. I was crying now. There couldnt be any truth in it could there? Celeste she said theres a chance that youre our sister. Thats why Donut broke up with you. Although I have to say, hes a bit of a pansy ass with the way he did it he could have at least TOLD you. Look at Logan and me every time we break up theres always a reason why, which is usually shouted quite vocally about the quad at school, so not only do we know but everyone knows. She smiled at me, trying to make light of the situation. Trying to make me smile it didnt work. My mother their father it was all too much. The words kept repeating slowly in my mind and yet, it didnt make sense. Until it did. We always said we were sisters. I smiled tremulously even as I felt my heart breaking all over again. Exactly now we have proof! Now as for the guy who has a crush on you She trailed off, glancing at me from under her lashes. I not tonight Lilly, okay? I I need time to process, to think could would you mind going home? Ill see you at school tomorrow. I could feel the tears threatening to fall, pricking at the backs of my eyelids with every rapid blink I made. Just remember Veronica Mars. We? Are sistahs! Maybe not by blood, but love does a whole lot more to bind us together. Lilly kissed the top of my head, hugging me gently and then she was gone. I let the tears fall, quietly muffling my sobs into my pillow. I didnt know how I was going to tell my dad. Youd think that was the end of it. One big secret and boy was it a doozy. Big enough to distort my perception of the world around me. Little did I know that the other secret the boy with the crush? That was the one that would tilt my world on its axis and knock me flat on my ass. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 2	#1	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/07/06 23:20:03) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Shelly Pomroys party. What a mistake that was. If it wasnt for Lilly making me go, I would have stayed home moping, still trying to puzzle out how to tell my father that my mother may be having an affair with my ex-boyfriends father. Lilly always won. Shed dressed me herself in a white cotton sundress, did my hair and makeup, and practically dragged me out the door with my father waving indulgently. As it was, I think, I can pinpoint this as the moment. The one that finally brought the secrets out in the open. Not that the first secret wasnt a big one, because obviously it was. How could it not be? But things were about to change forever. Lilly! Slow down! I shouted over the loud pounding music, tugging on the hand holding mine. I was stumbling in my haste to keep up with her as she headed towards the bar. Bar meant alcohol, and alcohol meant a very drunk Lilly by the end of the evening. She finally halted next to Dick and Beaver, pushing us between them as she got two rum and cokes from the makeshift bartender. Pressing one into my hand without a word, she chugged hers back, and grabbed another, all before Id had a chance to take a sip of mine. Geez Lilly! Keep up that pace and Ill be peeling you off the floor. I smiled at her as I slowly took a sip of the too strong drink. I hated the taste of rum. Lighten up Veronica Mars. Were here for a good time! She hesitated for a moment, before smirking at me, not a long time. I giggled at her antics, letting her take my hand and lead me away from the bar, hands held high above our heads as she did her sexy cat walk. Swaying hips and a come hither smile gracing her face as she led me to the middle of the room. Turning to face me she wiggled her hips, and raised her eyebrow. Cmon Veronica. Live a little! Letting go of my hand she threw her head back and raised her hands above her head. Lilly always knew how to have a good time. I laughed and tried to mimic her movements. Failing miserably as always. No one could imitate the great Lilly Kane. Spinning around in a small circle I stopped abruptly as I saw Logan staring at us, or more accurately staring at Lilly. He didnt look sad exactly, more contemplative, his eyes intense and burning. Turning to face Lilly, I leaned in to catch her attention. Lilly. Logans staring. I whispered into her ear. Lilly looked over my shoulder and smiled. Eyes closing in a slow blink, looking almost coquettish. Why yes he is. Think we should give him a show? Torture him a little? Her hands were at my hips before I could stop her, body moving sinuously against mine. I was entirely too sober for this sort of show. I tried to pull away, tugging against her hold, and she let me. Let me move away just a little before pulling me back against her front, her chin resting on my shoulder. Look left Veronica Mars. Look left. She whispered in my ear, her voice low and husky, entirely too old for her seventeen year old self. My eyes moved of their own volition to the left, and I saw them. Or him, since I wasnt sure who she was. Duncan leaning against a pillar, some girl kissing along his neck while he smiled and gripped her hips, pulling her entirely too close. I gasped, pain lancing through my chest. I knew we might be related. I knew he certainly thought we were, but how could he do that right in front of me? Still holding the rum and coke in my hand, I brought it to my lips and downed the entire thing in a couple of swallows. I grabbed the nearest boy, planting my mouth firmly on his, my tongue licking the seam of his lips. Another drink please. My voice came out harsh as I pushed him away, letting Lilly pull me back into the cradle of her arms. I wasnt even aware of whom Id kissed. Well, well, I knew you had a thing for me Mars. Dick leered at me, before moving in the direction of the bar, presumably to grab the drink Id requested. The drinks flowed, until I was wasted and grinding against Lilly on the makeshift dance-floor. Definitely not my shiniest moment. Dick behaved like a proper little puppy, fetching and carrying, while Lilly and I monopolized the attention of the guys in the room. One in particular. Hes still staring Lilly. Why wont he just come talk to you? I whined, as I looked back at Logan. A tower of shot glasses in front of him the only clue as to how much hed actually drank. Cause hes not staring at me dorkus. Lilly laughed into my ear as I stopped moving, turning to stare at her with my mouth hanging open slightly. Who? What? Lilly are you nuts? I babbled a little, trying to Logan was Lillys. He had been since like forever. Secret number two Miss Veronica. Logan has a crush on you. Lilly sing-songed before laughing uproariously at the shocked look on my face. Oh come on! Knee socks? He thought you were hot? How could you not know? She giggled out, hand over her mouth, eyes wide, she was totally enjoying my discomfort. Its what I was trying to tell you the other night! She was practically howling now. Typical Lilly. I felt strangely sober as I turned to look at him. Logan, sitting across the room, staring, as he had been the entire night. I was moving before I realised my feet had taken flight, out the patio doors and to the pool. Stumbling along in my drunken state. No matter how sober I felt, I was definitely still drunk. I sat down on a patio chair and laid my head back. Logan had a crush on me. Logan Echolls. Lillys boyfriend. Duncans best friend. I had to get Lilly and Logan back together again, the thought flitted through my mind. Things could just get way too complicated otherwise. Secret number two had been revealed in a drunken haze. No less devastating than the first. Lilly had outlawed Yolanda for kissing Logan. I can remember thinking that Lilly was going to exact revenge. She had to. Logan was hers as shed stated on numerous occasions. No matter that it wasnt really my fault. Logan wouldnt be allowed to cheat on Lilly. Even if they werent together anymore. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 3	#2	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/07/06 23:21:16) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	I dont remember much from the rest of the party. A blurred haze. Im still not sure if it was the alcohol or the drugs Dick slipped into one of the drinks he was ferrying to Lilly and I. Probably a mixture of both. It could have been worse, I suppose. He could have gotten the time alone with me he was aiming for. As it was I thought the consequences of his actions were going to ruin everything. I could barely stand. Stumbling along beside the pool. Lilly was still inside, boys clamouring around her. The world was a pretty white haze of gauzy clouds, the lights too bright, the music too loud. I just needed to rest for a moment. Just a moment. The lounge chair Id been sitting on earlier appeared before me and I flopped down on it closing my eyes. Just a moment and the dizziness would pass. Fingers touching my face, hands touching, caressing, pulling my mouth open and pouring alcohol down my throat. It burned, stung, tore my throat to pieces as I spluttered and coughed. There was someone sitting in my lap, erection poking firmly into my belly, as his fetid breath washed over my face, gagging me. He whispered about girls, and touching, my girlfriend. I didnt have a girlfriend. Lilly? I whispered, my eyes still closed. Lilly was supposed to be here with me. Lilly was supposed to take care of me. Lilly, Lilly, Lilly Im floating now, free and easy through the air, my dress hanging down my legs as strong arms lift me up, up, up and away. I cant help but giggle as my head falls back. Weeeeeeeeeee, I whisper, my voice strained from the alcohol, husky and cracked. I dont sound like me at all. You, Ms. Mars, are seriously trashed. Logans voice, near my ear. Logans arms, wrapped around me as he laid me gently on a bed. The Bed. Our bed? I cant wrap my mind around whats happening. Why Im here. Logan has a crush on me, but hes Lillys. He shouldnt be alone in a bedroom with me. Logan My voice still doesnt sound like my own, and I cant focus. Cant finish the sentence thats on the end of my tongue. End of my tongue, I wonder if I stick it out if Logan can read the words there. Would be so much simpler than trying to speak. I try it. My tongue darting out in Logans direction, and his chuckle greets me. I cant read the words Veronica. Put your tongue back in your mouth and go to sleep. He gently brushes my hair off my face, and Im doing as Im told. Pretty little princess whos had too much. Too much of everything lately. But Ive always done as Im told. I remember going to sleep. I dont remember Logan crawling into the bed beside me, curling around my body with his much bigger one, wrapping me in his arms. He tells me all the time he only did it to keep me safe. Im pretty sure he copped a feel while I was unconscious. He wouldnt be Logan if he hadnt. The Morning After was a bit of a freak out for me. Waking up alone in a bedroom with the one and only Logan Echolls. I nearly had a stroke trying to figure out if wed if all this time and I still have a hard time saying it. I tried to figure out if wed had sex. There was sunlight stabbing me in the eyes. Trying to sit up, to escape the pain, roll over, something, I must have left my blinds up last night. A masculine arm tightened around my waist, a kiss pressed to my forehead as a sleepy murmur set my heart to racing. I was in bed with a man. I slowly opened my eyes and came face to face with Logan. I tried to remember how, why, how Id come to how wed why I was in bed with Logan. Why was I in bed with Logan? I remembered feeling dizzy, laying down on the lounge out by the pool. I I remembered Logan telling me to go to sleep. I I didnt remember anything else. I wiggled, trying to move away without waking him. His arm tightened fractionally, pulling me closer, I was going to have to I was going to have to wake him to get up. Logan my voice whispered out, scratchy, my throat hurt. I couldnt think of anything to say to get him to move and then inspiration struck. Logan I have to pee. I said it softly this time, my voice rusty, scratchy, clawing its way out of my tight throat. Logan rolled, pulling the pillow over his head to block out the bright sunlight and I was free! I slipped quickly out of the bed, grabbing my dress from the floor. We had we? I still had my bra and panties on, but it we I turned back to face Logan wearing only his boxers. Logan was in bed with me wearing only his boxers and I didnt I couldnt remember anything. Id know if wed done that Id know. We hadnt, we couldnt. I wouldnt, only I finally admitted to myself that I probably would, could, and probably had. I dressed quickly, glancing back at Logan to make sure he was still asleep. Sleeping peacefully, hugging the pillow, he was almost adorable, well as adorable as Logan ever was, even asleep he still looked like he was up to no good. Hair tussled, lipstick on his neck my lipstick on his neck. I ran. Out the door, shoes in my hand. There was no way I could face him this morning. No way I could oh god Lilly couldnt ever find out. Just to make mention, alcohol and I? Not the best of friends. I planned to never ever make its acquaintance again. I hadnt realised at that time that Dick had slipped something into my drink. I thought for sure Id turned into one of those drunken party girls that fell into bed with the first available guy. The guy being Logan. Logan. Who, at the time, was Lillys. Or so I thought. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 4	#3	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/07/06 23:22:20) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Where was I? Ah right. The disaster of Shelly Pomroys party. Id woken up with Logan, run out the door, and avoided him like the plague for almost a month. Id learned from Lilly how to avoid unwanted boys. She is the master after all. Lilly had been acting strangely too. Disappearing during lunch hour, going to the bathroom during class and not coming back for twenty minutes, when shed finally returned to class her makeup was flawless but her hair was messed and her clothes were askew. Once shed come back to class with a different shirt on. Odd even for Lilly. But Logan. Id managed to avoid him for a whole month, dodging and hiding behind Lilly when the need arose. There was no way I was going to have the morning after conversation. Mall after school, Veronica Mars? Lillys voice broke into my reverie, I glanced to the left seeing her leaning against her locker. Lilly really knew how to lean. One shoulder pressed to the garish yellow paint, body swaying slight as she flicked her hair back over her shoulder. Id never managed to get the hair flick right. Whenever I did it I usually ended up hitting someone with it. I was thinking Salon? I want a hair cut. I said the words tentatively, unsure how shed take it. You never knew with Lilly. I was mildly surprised when she clapped her hands and squealed. Awesome! Ill book an appointment with my stylist. We need to bring out the true Veronica Mars! Lilly pulled out her cell and started punching in numbers before I could even mutter a protest. I tried anyway. I cant Lilly you know I cant afford your stylist! I made a grab for her phone but she waved me away with another flick of her hair, booking the appointment in record time. Come on Veronica. If you really are my sister Daddy dearest can at least pay for a hair cut. The words were out of her mouth, tripping down the hallway while I stared. Lilly said it out loud. Out loud meant acknowledging it. I bowed my head slightly, before looking once again at Lilly. Okay but nothing too out there. I smiled slightly trying to trying to make peace with myself. If it turned out that Jake Kane was not in actual fact my father Id find a way to pay her back. Im not sure what I was thinking at the time. Something about cutting away the girl that would grind with Lilly on the dance-floor and sleep with Logan Echolls. I remember thinking that the girl with the long hair was Duncan Kanes girlfriend and I wasnt that girl anymore. Maybe Id never been her. Three hours after school and the stylist finally finished. My hair now fell in soft waves all around my face. Short layers that brushed the curve of my chin every time I moved. If you want to go for an edgier style, use a round brush and blow dry it out instead of under, youll get a textured affect thatll be almost punk rock. The woman smiled at me. I hadnt managed to get her name around Lillys excited chatter. At least Id managed to talk Lilly out of the bright red chunks shed wanted to put in my hair. My Dad would have lost it. There was only so much change even I could handle in the run of a day. Staring down at the floor at my long blonde hair scattered everywhere, I couldnt help but think it was a pretty accurate symbol of the drama of the past couple of months. Tattered fragments of a girl that might not exist. I snorted quietly, drawing Lilly and the stylists attention. Shaking my head and feeling my hair brush my chin I smiled and hopped off the seat. It was time to get some clothes to go with my rockin new style. Shopping? I asked hopefully, wanting Lilly there while I remade myself, into into something other than me. Of course Lilly came shopping with me. We spent hours going through the stores looking for anything that would suit my new hairstyle and wasnt unbelievably pricey. I was furious when we got back to my house, only to find out Lilly had bought everything Id looked at. Regardless of the price. But how do you say no to Lilly Kane? It was and is something Id never managed. She told my Dad it was an early birthday present, and my Dad said I could keep the clothes. Lilly knew how to work her way around me. Con my Dad and Id follow suit. So back to school on Monday with a slammin new do, and hot hip clothes. Id wanted to walk through those doors with my head held high. I should have known that nothing ever goes according to plan. Lilly was trying to drag me from the confines of her SUV, practically dislocating my shoulder in the process. Veronica! Come on! You look fine Mars, get your skinny butt out of my car. She tugged harder and I finally slid to the ground, the sound of my combat boots scraping on the gravel made me wince. I looked like a complete and utter fool, I was sure of it. How had I ever thought I could pull this off? How Lilly. It was all Lillys fault. I glared at her for good measure, still staying in the shadow of the car door. It is not my fault. I did not talk you into anything this time. Now get your butt out here before I really embarrass you and get one of the boys to throw you over their shoulder. She glared back at me, and of course I relented. A Lilly glare was better than a punch in the face sometimes. Thats it Veronica Mars. Chin up! Chest Out! Shoulders Back! Okay! Lilly false cheered, laughing when I rolled my eyes. Lets do this. My mouth set in a grim line as I tilted my chin up. At least Lilly had dressed to compliment my new style. Mid thigh length black and red skirt with chains hanging from various D rings, Knee high black leather stompin boots, tight baby t with a pirate bunny on the front. Everyone would think we were going to a costume party. We marched through the front doors. I wasnt going to look, wasnt going to look, wasnt going too and there they were, the whispers and I looked. They were all staring, slack jawed and whispering to each other. The first wolf whistle broke the silence and I smiled slightly, when Lillys grin near split her face. Nice ass Mars! Dicks voice came from behind me and I turned to face him. Same old Dick, smirking at me while checking me out from the tips of my hair to the toes of my boots. Since Shellys party hed been at it non-stop. I looked to Lilly for a moment before making up my mind. Taking a step forward I moved into Dicks personal space. Now Dick, I let my voice fill with sugary sweetness, letting my hand trail across his chest, tilting my head to the side and back so I could stare up at him with false adoration in my eyes, this is about as close to my ass as youll ever get, now be a good boy and run along. I stepped away and turned my back on him, nearly hyperventilating as Lilly looked at me strangely. Way to go Veronica Mars! Attitude to match the clothes. Im impressed. Lilly spoke lowly in my ear as we continued on our way to our lockers. Its about time I stood up for myself. Dicks a jackass. I smiled slightly as I finally got my heart to stop racing. That? That had felt good. The first time Id managed to stand up to Dick. I felt powerful, in control, on top of the world. Right up until I turned the corner and ran smack dab into Logans chest. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 5	#4	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/08/06 20:51:39) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	All that avoidance gone to waste by the simple act of turning a corner. Murphy really sucks. There I was standing in the middle of the hallway, Logans hands on my arms to steady me, Lilly beside me, and my mouth gaping open in shock. Im pretty certain I looked hysterically funny. Although I didnt feel that way at the time. All that money, all that aggravation to change my look, and Logan Echolls touches me once and it all flew right out the window. I couldnt tear my eyes away from him. Couldnt move, couldnt everything was happening in slow motion, or maybe it wasnt. Maybe I was just panicking. Well, well Veronica. Playing dress up in Lillys big girl clothes? Logan had his tongue tucked into the side of his cheek as he smiled at me, but the words stung none-the-less. Run along Logan. Veronica doesnt have time to play with you today. Lilly smirked before pulling me away. I could feel Logans eyes on me. Staring as we walked away. Hyperventilating in the middle of the hallway wouldnt strengthen my new image would it? Cause at the moment Im seriously considering forgoing the new image and laying down on the floor to hyperventilate. Told you, Veronica Mars. Hes staring at your ass as we speak. Checking out the hotness that is you. Lilly grinned at me, smile spreading ear to ear. Nice way to state the obvious Lilly. I could feel his eyes, burning a hole into my back. Taking in my new clothes. At least Id worn the green capris today instead of the mini skirt. Army chic, that was me. Combat boots, capris, baby doll pink and green t, and of course the edgier style to the hair. I casually glanced back as we made it to our lockers. Logan was still standing in the middle of the hallway, staring, eyes intense. I could feel the blush starting in my cheeks spreading across my face, and down my neck. I turned back to my locker, busying myself opening the door and grabbing my books. I refused to look back again. So there I was, trying to avoid Logan, and up to that point Id been doing a pretty decent job of it too. Then Lilly. It was always Lilly. Lilly had to go and get involved. I wish Id realised at that moment, or at least somewhere in those days how manipulative Lilly could be. I knew Lilly was Lilly, and Lilly always got her own way, I didnt realise the extent she was willing to go to, to actually get her point across. I was slowly being driven insane. That had to be it. There was no other explanation for what was happening today. It seemed like every time I turned around he was there. Not smiling, not doing anything much at all. He was just THERE. I couldnt take it anymore. I phoned my Dad during study hall and asked if I could come home. I wasnt feeling well. It wasnt technically a lie, Logan was making me so nervous my stomach was in knots. I got in the squad car when my Dad pulled up, laying my head back on the seat. I knew I was pale, which would lend credence to my story. You okay sweetheart? He touched my forehead gently, which only made me feel guiltier. Im fine Dad just an upset stomach, must have been something I ate. I smiled wanly, before closing my eyes. I had to figure out what to do about Logan. I couldnt avoid him forever and eventually we were going to have to talk. Putting it off hadnt done me much good. He was staring at me all day. I could see something in his face. Im pretty certain he was seeing me naked all over again. Was he remembering the way I felt? Was it good? Was I horrible? Did he want a repeat performance? Did he think I was a whore now? So many questions tumbling around my brain, not one of them had answers. I really wish I could remember sleeping with him. Remember anything except falling asleep. It would make the conversation we had to have so much easier. My dad started the car and headed towards home. My thoughts were a giant jumble in my head, but Id made a decision. I was going to talk to Logan tomorrow even if I died of embarrassment. So there I was, determined to talk to Logan, stomach in knots, my fathers concerned hand on my shoulder, and pretty sure I was going to vomit on Logans shoes when we actually talked. I hadnt even told Lilly I was leaving that day. Which may not have been the best idea. Lilly could be impossible to deal with especially when she felt slighted. Veronica! Phone! My mom yelled from the living room. I slowly picked up the extension bringing it to my ear, Got it Mom! Hello? I was expecting the worst, that it was Logan phoning to find out why Id ditched out of the last class of the day, which I had with him and Duncan. Veronica Mars! You DITCHED ME! Lillys voice echoed shrilly across the phone lines. It was obvious she was pissed. I did not ditch you Lilly. I wasnt feeling well. My Dad came and got me. My voice was soft and quiet, trying to soothe my best friend. Something Id become quite adept at in our long years of friendship. Youre feeling just fine Veronica Mars. You chickened out. You ran scared of Logan Echolls and we both know it. Lillys voice was smug. She really did know me too well. Fine. I ran scared. Logan is a very scary boy. Sarcasm was always my best option when dealing with Lilly in this mood. Sometimes dealing with Lilly no not sometimes, dealing with Lilly was a full time job. Exactly. Logan is scary. So between you and me? Were gonna find a way to scare him Veronica Mars. Apparently my sarcasm didnt translate through phone lines, either that or Lilly was in full on ignore mode, only hearing what she wanted to hear. I dont want to scare Logan, Lilly. I want to ignore the fact that you think he has a crush on me. I want to I trailed off, before my voice got stronger, I want to have fun, be more like you. Isnt that what you wanted? When fighting with Lilly, never fight fair. Fight dirty and give her exactly what she wants, it usually worked. Oh Veronica. You know youre already fabulous, but youll never be as fabulous as me. Use your own strengths. Now as for Logan, this is what I think we should do Lilly explained in great detail how we were going to scare Logan. I honestly didnt agree with any of it. But then I remembered something my father had told me about. The old Bump and Bait. Distract the mark, and do something they arent aware of, whether it be planting a bug, taking evidence from them, or simply finding out information they didnt know they were giving. If Lillys plan worked I wouldnt have to avoid Logan anymore. Hed be avoiding me all on his own. Lilly would be happy, and I could avoid having the talk Id thought was inevitable. I apparently forgot the part where nothing Lilly plans ever turns out right. Shes never had the patience to see anything through. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 6	#5	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/08/06 20:55:01) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	So there I was, armed with Lillys plan, ready to go into battle. Or you know, into the school at least. I remember thinking the mini skirt and knee high boots were like my armour. How naive I was. Like a mini skirt was an ample weapon against one such as Logan Echolls. Day one of the Scare Logan Echolls plan, and it was doomed from the beginning. There was no way this could work. Absolutely not. I cant pull this off. I cant be the girl that I I cant be the girl that Lilly needs me to be. Im practically hyperventilating staring at the bathroom mirror. Lillys behind me, rubbing my shoulder gently as she encourages me. Cmon Veronica Mars! You can do this. A little bit of acting, a little bit of truth and youll have him on the run. All you have to do is well you actually have to leave the bathroom. Her face lit up in her devious smile, and I knew I was going to do it, or at least attempt it. Lets get this over with so you can see how stupid this really is. I cant DO this Lilly! My voice was verging on hysterical, shaking, along with the rest of my body. March Veronica. This is so gonna work. Lilly pushed me towards the door and I was moving. Out the door and down the hallway towards my locker. Wolf whistles dogged my every step. This was so degrading. I spotted Logan leaning against his locker watching my every move. I decided quickly to bypass my locker and made my way straight to him. The look of surprise on his face was almost worth it, almost worth the stomach knotting tension, the shakes and the jitters, almost. Not quite. I kept walking until I was right in front of him, and then I smiled. Not my usual smile. The smile Lilly had taught me, the naughty one. The one that made me feel dirty just using it. There was no way this was going to work, I chanted in my head. I pressed in, sliding my leg against his as my hand moved up his chest to gently grasp his neck. Logans mouth was hanging open in shock now. Maybe the plan would work. You. Me. Tonight. Pick me up at seven. I breathed out against his ear before placing a light kiss on his earlobe. I felt him nod against me and I turned and marched back to my locker. I felt his eyes on me the whole way. Maybe Lilly was right. Maybe this was the right way to handle Logan. After all, shed dated him for years. So I know what youre thinking. I totally came onto Logan. But that wasnt the plan at all. Well it was, sort of. I was supposed to come onto him, and then have him over for dinner with my father. My father, the Sheriff, who carried a gun, and was hugely overprotective of his only daughter. I was right the first time. Lillys plans never turned out the way they were supposed too. At six oclock there was a knock on the front door. My dad looked at me questioningly but I had absolutely no clue. Mom and Dad had both said it was okay to invite Logan for dinner, but dinner wasnt until seven. I opened the door to find a grinning Logan staring back at me, a full hour early. Car keys dangling from his fingers and bouncing in place he made quite the picture. Youre early. Was all I could think to say. Great Veronica Mars, state the obvious. Yep. Figured maybe we could grab dinner before whatever you had planned for the evening. His grin got wider, smugger, and I knew. Just absolutely knew he was aware of my plan all along. Sometimes Logan was smarter than I gave him credit for. Dinners at seven. And now I sounded confused. Just great, hes going to think Im an idiot. Logan pushed his way past me into the foyer, greeting my Mom and Dad like he came to my house every day. Mr. Mars, Mrs. Mars. I was wondering if youd mind if I took Veronica out for dinner. I know you guys usually eat at seven, and Veronicas curfew is eleven. I thought if we started a little early we could have a good jump on the evening. Logan didnt even glance at me once during his speech. Sure Logan. Have her home by eleven. Veronica take your coat, the wind is supposed to pick up tonight. My mom, always so helpful. No drinking and driving Logan. And if anything happens call here first. My fathers voice broke into the silence. Thank you Mom and Dad for not only embarrassing me but ruining the plan. Things were about to get decidedly worse. Let me grab my coat and purse, be right back. I hurried quickly to the bedroom, grabbing my cell and speed dialling Lillys number. Youve reached the fabulous Lilly Kane. If youre a hot guy leave a number and Ill call you back. Anyone else Ill get to you eventually. Her voice mail. Lilly, things just headed south of the border. Call me when you get this! My voice sounded panicky. With good reason. I was about to go on a date with Logan. A real date, where my father wouldnt be there to run interference. Or you know, clean his gun. I grabbed my coat and purse, stuffing my cell phone inside before taking a deep breath to calm myself. Id been out with Logan a hundred times. I could do this. Just dont mention Shelly Pomroys party, Veronica, and keep things friendly. Logan was a friend after all. I could do this. I walked down the hallway towards where Logan was waiting, but as soon as I saw him. I knew. There was no way I was pulling this off. This was the worst idea in the history of ideas. Lilly was going to kill me. I should have known something like that would happen. Logan was nothing if not unpredictable. Day one of the Scare Logan Echolls plan had gone decidedly sour. I remember thinking I could salvage it if only Lilly would call and tell me what to do. The date wasnt bad. Okay fine, it was pretty fantastic. But it ended up terrifying me. Cause after it was all over I realised something. Logan Echolls, the bad boy extraordinaire? Was really a good boy in a bad boy package. Sweet on me or not. Logan was someone I could see myself dating. But not at the expense of Lillys friendship. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 7	#6	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/08/06 20:56:22) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	So the date didnt turn out like I expected. It was actually quite great. We went to the Village. If youre unaware what that is its this neat little strip mall. All local vendors selling locally hand crafted merchandise. Really its the alternative area of the city. Everything one hundred percent hand made, home grown, hand crafted, etcetera. Its always been one of my favourite places in Neptune. Im surprised he knew. Or maybe he didnt. Im still not sure and hes never admitted to anything. The wind was a little chilly as we walked along looking at different vendor stalls. Id zipped my coat a little while before and Logan had offered me his jacket for extra warmth. Id politely declined. It was one thing to be out alone with Logan, I didnt want to take his coat and give him the wrong impression. Well more than hed already gotten from my asking him out. I found a beautiful puka shell necklace at this tiny stall, an elderly Mexican gentleman speaking Spanish so quickly I had a hard time following. When I finally managed to slow him down he explained that his daughter had made the necklace. I bought it, before shyly handing it to Logan. To replace the one I broke. He smiled and accepted the necklace, putting it on quickly and efficiently. Perfect little surfer boy. I dont remember you breaking my shells. His voice was slightly confused and I smiled in glee. You remember. We were like, twelve? Thirteen? We were swimming you tried to dunk me and I grabbed at you I hinted slowly, reminding him of a time when we were young and carefree. Thats right. You were a little imp! You grabbed my shells and tugged. The shells and beads went flying! Celeste had to take Duncan to the hospital! He was outright howling now as he recounted the story. One of the damn shells hit Duncan in the eye. Scratched his cornea, Dude had to wear an eye-patch for weeks.! His hand slipped into mine and I didnt pull away. I giggled along with him, clenching our fingers together. You teased him mercilessly about being a pirate. I remember something about a parrot and a peg leg you bought him on his birthday to go with the patch. We laughed as we continued to walk. Still holding hands. Man was he mad. Refused to talk to me for weeks. Forgave you soon enough though, even though it was all your fault. Logan was teasing me mercilessly, looking down at me with a smile in his eyes. True. But I have something you dont. I smirked a little and batted my eyelashes for effect. Oh yah, Mars? Whats that? He brushed his finger across my chin. This was definitely going to far. Im cute and adorable Echolls. That always gets me out of trouble. I smirked as he laughed. What. Youre saying Im not cute and adorable? He batted his eyelashes at me and I couldnt help but laugh. Being small and diminutive works in my favour! I pinched his chin and turned around, nearly running smack into Duncan. He looked back and forth between the two of us, eyes landing on our joined hands before turning on his heel and stalking away. Duncan! I yelled after him, my voice cracking. I took a step in the direction hed stalked off in but Logan pulled me back by our joined hands. Let him be. Its not your fault hes behaving like a jackass. Logan smiled for a moment, not letting go of my hand. You mean its not his fault hes behaving like his best friend? I snarked back smiling slightly. I guess Im rubbing off on him. Tugging on my hand Logan led me away from the scene. I glanced back once in the direction Duncan had gone, but Logan was a good distraction. Ice cream? I asked hopefully, sticking out my lower lip. That had always worked on Duncan. Actually it worked on my father too. Nope. I promised you dinner! No ice-cream before dinner. He smirked at me. Logan Echolls smirking was always a dangerous thing. How about Ice-cream for supper? Ive been trying to talk my Dad into a sundae night for ages. I giggled as Logans smile turned into a frown for a moment. Now that we can manage. Sundaes I mean. Maraschino cherries have nutritional value right? He laughed as he spun me around. A small confrontation from Duncan. No words actually exchanged though. I think. Nope Im pretty certain thats about the point I started to get mad. Angry. Furious with the fact hed broken up with me without a word. Lilly had at least told me why, but it should have come from Duncan. Logan took me home before my curfew, a solid hour before my curfew. My dad had smiled proudly and patted Logan on the back. Such a good impression for once. Lilly hadnt returned my call. Which wasnt a new thing. Not with Lilly Queen of the Nightlife. The date had gone remarkably well. Logan didnt seem the least bit scared. It had been time for a new plan of action. One that Lilly had no part of. Monday morning dawned bright and clear. Sun shining brightly through my bedroom blinds. Logan had phoned twice during the weekend, once on Saturday and once on Sunday. Id refused to take the calls. No more avoidance, no more plans of Lilly. I was going to handle this my way. Handle Logan my way. This whole mess had started at Shelly Pomroys party. Where Id gotten drunk and behaved like Lilly. It was no wonder Logan liked me. He didnt really like ME. He liked Lilly version 2.0. It was time to be me. I got up, showered quickly and dressed in a pink floral cotton dress. Curling my hair under. I applied a light layer of pink shadow and a light pink strawberry lip gloss. I slipped on my white low slung sandals and stared at myself in the mirror. Absolutely boring. I looked perfect. No more armour, no more new Veronica. The old boring Veronica Mars was attending Neptune High today and Logan was finally going to snap out of whatever phase he was in. There was no way hed notice me today. Standing at my locker, I was surprised when Logan slid in beside me, leaning against the locker next to mine. I glanced up then quickly away. So I was thinking. Friday was great. Want to try the boardwalk tomorrow? Well go right after school. His voice seemed sincere enough, but there was no way he meant it. Look Logan. We both know this isnt happening. Either you want to get back at Lilly for dumping you, or youre trying to be nice and cheer me up after what Duncan did. Drop the act and lets go back to the way things were. Go apologise to Lilly, shell take you back like she always does and life can go back to normal. I didnt look at him once during my speech. Grabbing my books and heading off to my first class of the day. I didnt look back. Id thought I was doing the smart thing. Giving Logan a way out without embarrassing the both of us. No one else knew about what had happened at Shelly Pomroys party. Only Duncan knew about our date. Things would just go back to normal. I didnt know how wrong I was. Nothing was ever going to be normal again. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 8	#7	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/11/06 13:02:03) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Logan did not actually speak to Lilly. In point of fact, he refused to speak to either of us. Wed approach and hed quickly leave. Id open my mouth in class to say something and he'd get up and change seats. Things were becoming quite strained and Lilly hounded me constantly. She wanted to know exactly what had happened on our date. There was absolutely no way I could tell her the truth. That I had gone out with Logan Echolls and actually enjoyed myself. I was sure shed hit the roof, or go through it.. Lilly just leave it alone. We walked, we talked, and he took me home. End of story! Stop pestering me. Nothing happened! I was getting really annoyed at Lillys unending questions. There was no way Id be able to avoid the details forever. Cmon Veronica Mars. Best Friends Forever! Youre supposed to share the juicy details! Did you kiss! Did it go further! Did you OH MY GOD! You slept together! Lilly bounced excitedly by my side as my face turned crimson. I could feel the heat spreading down my neck. LILLY! We did NOT sleep together on our date! I couldnt bring myself to outright lie to Lilly. Better to be clear on when Logan and I had slept together. I slammed my locker closed and headed for the front doors. Id brought my car today just so I wouldnt have to sit around and wait for Lilly. Actually Id brought my car today so I could make a quick escape. Lilly could be absolutely relentless. She grabbed my arm and spun me around to face her. Veronica. Youre not being honest. I can tell by the way you wont meet my eyes. Dish girlfriend before I lock you in the girls bathroom until you fess up. She narrowed her eyes at me. I knew Id have to tell her something. Anything to get her to stop. Fine. Meet me at my house in half an hour. Ill tell you everything. Half an hour was enough time to come up with a decent plan. I was panicked. I picked the first excuse to get her off my back I could think of. I admit now I had absolutely no idea what to tell Lilly. There was no way I could tell her the truth. I also should never have thought half an hour was enough time. I couldnt come up with a plan in half an hour, at least not one that would convince Lilly. I pulled up in front of my house and saw Lilly pacing back and forth in front of the steps. I was only ten minutes late but it figures she couldnt sit still and wait patiently. I climbed out of the car and slowly made my way towards her. Mom and Dad are out tonight. Weve got the house to ourselves. Poor evasion tactics, which I should have known wouldnt work. Great! Then we can talk and squeal without anyone overhearing. Lilly linked her arm through mine as I unlocked the door and practically shoved me inside the house. Now spill Veronica. I want details! All of them! She was bouncing with excitement as I put my book-bag down. Want a soda? I made my way towards the kitchen with Lilly dogging my every step. No. What I want is the story. Spill or Ill She trailed off threateningly before smiling. It was scary Lilly smile number thirty seven. I cringed inwards and took a deep breath. Fine. He showed up an hour early. He somehow knew, or remembered, or something that we ate dinner at seven. He showed up early and asked my Mom and Dad if he could take me to dinner. I paused as I opened my soda, taking a long swallow to stall my confessions. I never could keep a secret from Lilly for long. And? Just dinner? Whered he take you! Did he bring flowers! Cmon Veronica! Lilly was practically whining by now, it was time to give the details. I sighed and continued, We went to the Village. We walked, talked, just like I said we did. We had ice-cream for dinner, I replaced his puka shell necklace I broke. We ran into Duncan. He held my hand and then he took me home. My voice was monotone as I recited the facts. There was absolutely no need to let Lilly know exactly how much Id enjoyed myself. Okay first. What necklace of his did you break? And second! Duncan saw you! There was hand holding! Lilly was hopping around like mad. Youd almost think Id poured Mexican jumping beans down her pants. Yes, Duncan saw us! He didnt even say a word. Just turned around and walked away. Logan wouldnt let me go after him. I sighed mentally, the last thing I wanted was to cause friction between Duncan and Lilly. This whole thing was a huge mess. You have to remember the necklace? The one that broke and had Duncan wearing an eye-patch? I giggled slightly, trying to lighten the mood and avoid the topic of hand holding. Ah! The curse of the peg leg! I remember now. Lilly giggled with me for a moment before turning very serious. Now as for the hand holding. Did he hold your hand first, or did you grab his hand? Was there end of the night kisses? Hes such a great kisser. Lilly sighed dramatically while placing a hand to her forehead and pretending to swoon. Always the Drama Queen. I hesitated for a moment to long causing Lilly to poke me sharply in the ribs. He grabbed my hand. There was no end of the date kisses, so obviously no tongue. I have no idea if hes a great kisser. I swear. I rushed out with the last, one giant gasping breath. Lilly stared at me strangely for a moment before bursting out laughing. Dude! Veronica Mars! You really think I care? Logans a great kisser, but were so last week. Last month even! Were done for good this time. Ive found me a new playmate and Logan would just screw with that dynamic. Lilly laughed outright at the shock on my face. I must have looked completely shell shocked, which in actual fact I was. Veronica Mars! Is that why youve been avoiding him? Because you thought Id get mad? Go for it girl! If anyone can bring you out of your shell enough to be as fabulous as me, its Logan. Remember. You are not a yellow cotton sundress. Youre red satin. You just havent realised it yet. Lilly smirked and I couldnt help myself. I banged my head repeatedly on the kitchen island. Lilly was practically howling now, tears streaming down her face as she laughed at me. Hes never, each word punctuated with a bang of my forehead on the tiles, going to, another slam, talk to, my head was starting to hurt, me again. I rested my throbbing head on the counter and just moaned piteously. Lilly stopped laughing long enough to pat my back soothingly. Sure he will. Youll just have to throw yourself at him. I glanced up at Lilly as she took to laughing again, giggles spilling from her lips and coating me in horror. I told him to stop. Told him to ask you for forgiveness, that youd take him back. I was gaping like a fish now, my mouth open in a little silent o. Even throwing myself at him wasnt going to work. Oh that was brilliant Veronica! Lilly shook her head before getting that look in her eye. The one that told me she was thinking. Oh dear god Lilly was thinking again. So dont throw yourself at him. Do it the easy way. Wear your new clothes tomorrow, prance around in front of him. Make sure he sees someone hitting on you, preferably Casey Gant, or Caz Truman, but Dick would drive Logan bonkers. Lilly nodded her head as she plotted out loud. We need to make him think youre not interested. Hell want you more then. She tapped a finger on her chin. Look. Lilly! Stop for a minute. The whole reason I told him to get back together with you? I think he, well I dont think he really likes me! He just wants Lilly 2.0. I hung my head, things just couldnt get much worse. Veronica Mars you are an idiot. A grade A class idiot. Lilly rolled her eyes before huffily continuing, When do you think I found out Logan had a crush on you? It was before Shellys party! Before you bought the new clothes. Before you finally gave in and did the remodel! Get over it Veronica! Logan likes YOU, you big dumbass. She flounced, there was no other word for it, she flounced away and sat with a thud on the couch. Wear the clothes, Mars. Refine the attitude. Give as good as you get, and maybe, just maybe youll be able to salvage the situation. If not. Well I can always hook you up with the Beav. Lilly laughed at the look of horror on my face. I cant be you Lilly. I smiled tremulously while shaking my head. Of course not Veronica Mars! No ones as fabulous as me. But maybe, just maybe, if you get over yourself you might just come close. Lilly smiled. Might come close. That was a laugh and a half. No one ever could be as fabulous as the great Lilly Kane. I shouldnt have tried. Logan was right when hed asked if I was playing dress up in Lillys clothes. I should have stuck with being myself. Things might have turned out better. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 9	#8	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/11/06 18:58:54) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	So I dressed as Lilly suggested. Black mini skirt with pink pleating. I loved that skirt. Its really too bad it got ruined the first time I wore it. Pink and black baby tee. Pink clips in my hair and black runners with pink racing stripes, and ankle socks. I was smoking hot. I drove myself to school again. After what happened at lunch that day it was a damn good thing I had. The plan was going great. Logan had been glaring daggers at me all day. I really wanted to bang my head against a locker. He was going to end up thinking I was a nut case. Or worse, just like Lilly, playing with his feelings and then running cold on him. Why had I thought this was a good idea? Oh thats right! Lilly convinced me it was! I made it all the way through the first half of the day. Dick had pinched my butt sometime during second period. I had the bruise to prove it. All I had to do was make it through lunch and the rest of the day and Id be home free. Sitting down beside Lilly I smiled gratefully when she slid closer to me. Dick still managed to sit on the other side. Sliding his hand up my bare thigh. So Mars. You been taking lessons from Lilly? Dick smirked and I wanted to do something. Anything to knock that smirk off his face. Nope. Logan actually. I paused as Logans eyes shot towards me. I smiled slightly before casually knocking my drink into Dicks lap. Youre sitting in the wet spot. Learn to control yourself Dick. I smirked as Dick let out a loud gasp. The ice cold contents of my soda can drip from his crotch. Thats it, Mars you Dick trailed off as Logan slowly stood up. What Dick. You gonna confess how you drugged her the night of Shellys party? A little confession is good for the soul. Logan met my eyes and I could see the apology there. Well at least now I knew why Id slept with him. It wasnt the alcohol after all. My eyes flew to Dick as he flushed bright red. Cmon Dick, I emphasized the D making it sound like two separate words, be a man! My voice was ice cold and harsh, Id never heard myself sound like that. Or is that pretty much the only way you get chicks these days? Drugging them? I arched an eyebrow but managed to maintain my cool. Super strength Veronica Mars, thats me. Dick spluttered a few times before backing slowly away. What a coward, running towards the parking lot before anyone could stop him. Im surprised hed forgotten it wasnt the 09ers he had to be frightened of. Daddys the Sheriff and carries an awfully big gun. The table was deathly silent as I closed my eyes. I didnt want to look at anyone. Nope, not me. I keep forgetting that never works. Cmon Veronica. We need to talk. I just knew Logan had his hand out, waiting for me to take it. I still wasnt going to open my eyes. I slowly stood and he grabbed my hand, leading me blindly through the quad. Leading me somewhere other than here. That was good. Anywhere other than here was good. Wed headed towards the parking lot. I didnt even think about the fact that Dick had headed in the same direction. Didnt think about the consequences of following. Logan had my hand and I knew everything was going to be fine. Sometimes things actually manage to turn out the way I want them too, and sometimes Logan takes matters into his own hands and makes them turn out the way HE wants them too. I stumbled along behind Logan, barely able to keep up with his long strides. I heard Dick cursing and my eyes popped open. I tugged on Logans hand but it didnt even slow him down. Logan no. I dont. Just, no. I dont want to play nice with Dick. Just STOP! I finally yelled as I tugged my hand out of his. There was no way I was apologizing to Dick for what Id done. Not after what Id found out. And if Logan wanted to beat him up in the parking lot I wanted no part of that either. What? Logan looked genuinely confused as he finally stopped. I dont want to see Dick. I know my voice sounded petulant, but I couldnt help it. I stomped my foot for good measure. Mine? Or Dick in general? Logan smirked down on me as he continued to pull me through the parking lot, in the opposite direction Dick was cursing in. Logan was pulling me towards the Xterra. Not towards Dick. I was stunned momentarily speechless, that was the only excuse I could come up with for why I let Logan push me into the backseat of the Xterra. Stunned, that was it. I was even more stunned when his lips landed on mine. I really wish I could remember kissing him before. Did we kiss? Was it like this? Hot, messy, hard? I couldnt help but let out a gasp as his tongue slid slowly across my lower lip, giving him access to delve inside. I was laying back against the seat with Logan over me, kissing me absolutely breathless. Im not sure how we got in this position. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and held on for dear life. He was going to swallow me whole if we kept up at this pace. Logan, I moaned into his mouth, clutching at his shoulders, pushing, pulling him closer, grasping reflexively, I wasnt sure what to do with my hands. He moved away from my mouth, moving down my neck with gentle sucking kisses, causing me to throw my head back. God he felt good. Duncan had never I stopped clutching at Logan. Duncan what must Logan think of me if we were here now, in this after Shellys he must think Im Stop thinking Veronica. Logan mumbled into the skin of my bare stomach, hands sliding under my skirt, and I didnt have any choice. My panties were down around one ankle before I realised what he was doing, my skirt pushed up around my hips and he was moving lower. Hot tongue sliding against my LOGAN! I gasped loudly as his tongue slid against my clit. Duncan had never, Id never, at least I dont remember doing this before. He touched me with easy familiarity, fingers sliding against my outer lips, sliding in, and Im lost. One finger sliding in and out as his tongue swirled around my clit, lips sucking on it, and Im flying higher. Higher, and I can feel something. I thrust my hips once and groan in humiliation. I cant stop myself from moving, cant stop myself from thrusting against his fingers, against his mouth, and its almost there. Im trembling against him, and I want. Just want. Let go Veronica. Cmon, just ride it out his breath is hot against me, teasing me, as he sucks harder on my clit, and Im flying. Shattering in the space of seconds. My hips fly up towards him, beyond my control and I hear a loud ripping sound. My eyes fly open sightlessly as I struggle to breathe. Hes lapping at me, gently easing me down as my hips return to the seat. My hands are in his hair, clutching hard as I ride his face. OH god Im riding his face. I flush brightly in humiliation as I realise what just happened. I had an orgasm in the back seat of Logans car. Logans finger is still inside me. I slowly open my eyes to stare down at him, but hes not looking at me. Hes staring at my skirt. Which is now torn down the front, one part still in his hand, the other trailing forlornly down the side of the seat. Id torn my skirt. My panties were still around my ankle. My day had just gone from bad to worse. I really loved that skirt. Pity I only got to wear it once. All in the span of a single lunch hour Id found out Id been drugged at Shelly Pomroys party, stood up to Dick, and had Logan go down on me in the back of his Xterra. What else could happen you ask? Well apparently that was only the beginning. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 10	#9	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/13/06 06:27:11) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	So there I was. Lunch hour at school, in the back of the Xterra, in my panties. I didnt even have any gym clothes to change into, since I didnt have phys-ed this semester. I think the proper term was up shits creek without a paddle. Veronica Logans voice trailed off. He still hadnt met my eyes, obviously preferring to stare at my torn skirt. Dont Logan. Just. Dont. I pulled the tattered remnants of my skirt and dignity around me and opened the side door a bit to check and make sure the coast was clear. The parking lots deserted, I take a deep breath and move to slide to the ground, still clutching my skirt when Logans voice stops me. Veronica, I didnt mean for this to happen. Im not waiting for whatever else he has to say. I dont want to hear how much he regrets what just happened between us. Forget about it Logan. I mumble and Im out the door, hurrying to my car across the lot. Its definitely time to go home and change, and of course skip school for the rest of the afternoon. It would figure Id share the only sexual act I actually remember with Logan. At least it isnt incest. Im giggling to myself, slightly hysterical as I lean my head against the steering wheel. He regrets it. I knew, no matter what Lilly said, I knew he was still hung up on her. How could he not be hung up on the fabulous Lilly Kane. I can feel the wetness on my cheeks, trembling fingers moving up to brush them away when I hear a knock on my window. I start the car and put it in drive without turning to see who it is. I dont want to talk to anyone right now. As Im pulling out of the parking lot I cant help but look in my rear-view mirror and see Logan standing where my car had been. Watching me drive away. Youre not surprised are you? When things get difficult thats how I deal. I run, take some time for myself, and avoid the situation until Im better able to handle it. I admit not the best coping mechanism, but its worked for me so far. My Dad was home for lunch when I got there. It was fun explaining my little clothing mishap to him. Thank God Dads so understanding. I lied through my teeth. Told him Id caught the damn skirt on the edge of a lunch table. Hed called the school to let them know I wouldnt be there for the rest of the afternoon. He thought I was humiliated over the student body seeing my underwear. I felt sick to my stomach for lying to my Dad, but what choice did I have? Honey? Dinners ready. My Dad knocked softly on the door. Id been in my room all day, hugging my pillow and wallowing in self pity. I was still trying to figure out a way to get out of going to school tomorrow. I didnt want to see anyone. I still wasnt sure what I was going to do about Dick. Ill be there in a second Dad! I quickly wiped the tears away and made my way out to the kitchen. Dads still in his uniform from work and an idea strikes me. Dad? Can I talk to you for a minute before Dinner? I make my voice suitably hesitant as I question him from the doorway to the kitchen. Of course. His voice is concerned and I feel even worse for the lie I told him this afternoon, but first things first. I take a deep breath to centre myself and carefully choose my words, You remember Shelly Pomroys party? The one I went too with Lilly? My voice is still trembling and his face is growing more and more concerned. Buck up, Veronica, you can do this. Yes. The one you didnt come home from? Dads voice is starting to have a darker edge to it, like he knows Im going to tell him something horrible. I hesitate for a moment before I continue. My voice, at least, has gotten stronger, I kind of figured out I have a crush on Logan, and I know you dont like him Dad but I really like him, and please, please just give him a chance, he hasnt been drinking at all lately, and hes been really sweet to me and I think I really want to date him and I cut off as my Dad burst out laughing. You, you he trailed off after a moment his face red with mirth, You had me really worried Veronica! I kind of figured out the you liking him part already. You invited him for dinner remember? He smiled at me and pulled me close for a hug. I love the way my Dad smells and every time he pulls me in close I cant help but inhale deeply. He smells like home. Well see about Logan. I cant stop you, as you very well know. But! Until he proves otherwise, curfew is nine oclock on weeknights, and ten oclock on weekends. He ruffled my hair when I gave an indignant squawk. DAD! I havent had a nine oclock curfew since I was like twelve! My voice came out shrill, as I pushed him away. Fine. Curfew stays the same, but he comes into the house to get you and comes in when he brings you home. One sniff of alcohol on his breath and hes through, got it? His voice got all stern. My Dad loves me, its not hard to tell, but hes scary sometimes. Nothings set yet Dad. Im not even sure how he Im not even sure if he likes me yet. Id made up my mind. I was going to make a serious play for Logan. Lilly or no Lilly. Crying wasnt going to solve all my problems and there was something there. I wasnt sure what yet, but something at least. Hed be crazy not to like you Veronica and you know it. He hugged me again as we made our way to the kitchen where my mother was waiting. I had Dads blessing. I still, to this day, feel horrible about lying to him but really? How do you tell your Dad I ripped my skirt having sex with Logan in the back seat of his car. Dads just wouldnt take that well, or at least mine wouldnt. After Dinner that night I set to planning. Thank God Im better at planning than Lilly. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 11	#10	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/13/06 21:30:58) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	The next morning dawned bright and clear, my plan of action neatly tucked into my back pocket. Yes, in case youre wondering, I wrote it all down. Which as you might guess wasnt exactly the best idea. Lilly had phoned the night before to see if I was okay. Id outlined a little of the plan, asking for her help to deal with Dick. Of course, Lilly agreed. I was beginning to feel like Veronica Mars; split personality girl. The constant switching back and forth between old Veronica and new Veronica was making my head hurt. Today I was attempting to mix the two sets of clothing together and truth be told, not having much luck with it. Veronica! Lillys here! My moms voice drifted down the hallway and I could hear Lilly saying shed just meet me in my room. You are not seriously considering wearing that are you? Lilly scoffed from the doorway. Making her way towards me she grabbed the shirt from my hands and tossed it back into my closet. Scanning my clothes, she quickly picked a pair of plain black capris that would hang off my hips. These, she said seriously before turning back to my closet. This, she handed me a black halter top with little red roses on it, a sweet little bow tied above the breasts giving it a peasant top feel. She grabbed my silver belt from the floor, throwing it at me, moved to my dresser and grabbed my silver bangles, a silver and red necklace, and silver hoop earrings. Accessories. She was certainly being succinct this morning. Sit down and Ill do your hair. She was pushing me onto the bed when I started laughing. Lilly! Geez! Let me dress first! Take charge Lilly was kind of amusing. Oh. Right. A grin spread across her face as she had the grace to look slightly abashed. Move it Veronica Mars! We have a strategy! She giggled at me, finally loosening up. I dressed quickly, leaving my feet bare, and sat on the bed. Lilly sat behind me opening her purse and quickly finding about five million bobby pins. This was definitely going to be painful. She quickly and easily styled my hair, fingers flying through my blonde tresses, pulling and scraping at my scalp with the bobby pins. She once again reached into her purse and pulled out a white tube. Waxx is a girls best friend. Remember that Veronica. She worked the stiff purple goo through my hair, making satisfied noises. I stood and moved to my bedroom mirror. Definitely not what I was expecting. Shed pinned the sides of my hair severely back, leaving the top and back falling free, in a faux hawkish type of look. Messy and unkempt with a glamorous feel to it, I decided I looked hot. Sexy type of hot. Youre going to do my makeup too right? Cause theres no way I could match this look if I tried. Waiting for Lilly to nod she pulled her make up kit out of her magic purse. I swear sometimes shes got everything in the damn thing, including the kitchen sink. She quickly applied my makeup and the effect was stunning. Smokey eyes, defined cheekbones, slightly darker lips. I looked like a vixen. A Punk Rock, Sweet Vixen. Today was definitely going to be interesting. Lilly and I played dress up. She even borrowed one of my new shirts that said, Everyone is entitled to MY opinion. I shouldnt have bought it in the first place. It was totally a Lilly shirt. As I can prove by the fact she never did return it. I was hot. Not just high school hot. But put those text books to better use boys, hot. Neptune High didnt know what hit it that morning. Lilly had decided I needed to wear her black strappy sandals. Way too dressy for school, but absolutely perfect for my outfit. I breathed deeply and tried something new. I pretended I was Lilly. I knew everyone was going to stare but Id managed to convince myself on the way to school that I didnt care. I didnt care that they were going to stare, that I was going to be the centre of attention. I didnt care at all. Only I think Im lying to myself. According to the plan Lilly went in the school before me as I sat in my Le Baron waiting for the signal. Lilly made it to the front doors turning to nod signalling that everyone was there. She grinned at me, which was definitely making me feel better. Showtime. I grabbed my backpack from the seat next to me, stepping from the car. The look definitely would have worked better if I was about a foot taller, but Id have to manage. Taking a deep breath for courage I made my way towards Lilly. She smiled and headed in ahead of me. Stick to the plan, Veronica, I reminded myself. Things would work if I stuck to the plan. I paused inside the doors allowing my eyes to adjust to the florescent lights in the hallway. Also to give everyone ample time to catch sight of me. I knew when everyone was staring because of the almost silence. Theyd definitely seen me. I made my way slowly towards my locker where Lilly was standing, barely glancing at her as she paused to stare along with the rest of the crowd. Thank God Lilly was a good actress. Whats with the look Veronica Mars? She spoke just loud enough for everyone to hear. Absolutely perfect. I could feel Logans eyes following my every move. Dick standing near him, both boys practically drooling. Perfect set up. Felt like a change. I used the same tone as Lilly, keeping my voice light as I shoved my book bag in my locker, taking out the texts Id need for first period. A change to what? Bad Ass Veronica Mars? Lilly laughed so loudly I winced. This was going to be the hard sell, that Id changed enough to stand up to Lilly, changed enough that Lilly actually believed it. Of course shed believe it, it was all part of the plan, but the crowd had to believe she believed it. And now I was just confusing myself. Nope, I grinned a little before the next words popped out of my mouth, Sex Kitten. Lilly gave me the blank stare, I think Id actually managed to shock her, she definitely wasnt expecting that. Apparently the crowd wasnt either. Voices could be heard whispering up and down the hall, getting louder as Lilly continued to stare at me. Dont you actually have to, you know have sex to be a sex kitten? Lilly finally stated giving me an odd look. Working on it Lill, working on it. I laughed, keeping my voice low. I wanted to see how the other half lives. Time for a little rebellion. Wanna rebel with me Lilly? Make it good? Give Celeste something to really freak over? I smirked at her, practicing my Lilly smirk in the mirror last night apparently had worked. Lillys eyes widened before she slowly smiled. Tonight. You, me and who ever we can dig up. She nudged my shoulder again. Thats if you dont chicken out first. Laughing, Lilly shook her head and continued to rummage through her locker. She knew what was coming. Knew not to follow me as I moved quickly away. I just hoped I had the courage to actually do it. I moved towards Logan with purpose. His eyes widening and a slow smile spreading across his face as he realised I was heading straight towards him. Once again I found myself in a familiar position, pressed against Logan in the middle of the hallway, barely a breath between us. I didnt speak, and stopped him from speaking the only way I knew how. I threw myself at him. Actually literally, his head banged back on the locker behind him with a solid clang. My lips smashed into his, parting immediately as I licked at the seam of his lips, teeth biting gently at his lower lip. He finally opened to me on a surprised gasp as I bit harder, my tongue delved inside. I dont think Ive ever kissed anyone like this. Like I wanted to eat him from the mouth down. Im not sure I could repeat the performance if I tried. Logans arms finally came around me, spinning us around until I was pressed back against the locker. He kissed me the way he had yesterday, all hard, messy, loud, groaning into my mouth. You could seriously get lost in Logans kisses. Everything else just seemed to disappear, which would explain why I didnt hear the throat clearing, until someone pulled Logan away from me. Vice Principal Clemmons didnt look very impressed. In fact he looked decidedly unimpressed. The rest of the hallway was clapping through. Loudly, cheering really. I fought to contain the blush I could feel on my cheekbones as Logan stared at me like I was his last meal, Clemmons hand still gripping his shoulder. Im pretty certain wed be kissing again if Clemmons would just let go of him. Lunch, I mouthed at him as Clemmons started to lead him away. The wolf whistles are getting louder now. Hey Logan! Im pretty certain that colour of lipstick clashes with your shirt. Try burnt orange next time. Lillys amused voice could be heard from a few feet away, as the rest of the hallway burst into laughter. Part one of the plan complete, onto phase two. That kiss? Best kiss ever. Even thinking about it now makes my mouth tingle. Im sorry I got Logan into so much trouble actually, no Im not. Totally worth the hour we spent in separate rooms in the office. Part of the master plan you see. Clemmons put us in different rooms in the office. I waited patiently for him to leave the room, before grabbing the lock picks out of my purse. I quickly opened the file drawer marked C and searched for Dicks name. Jotting down exactly which classes he had at which time, I moved over to Clemmons desk. Time to modify that pesky drug search schedule. I was sitting sedately in the chair by the time Clemmons came back. Veronica Mars! Im disappointed in you He droned on for over thirty minutes before finally telling me there was no need to call my father, and while I was attending his school would I please stick to the moral code. Of course Mr. Clemmons. Im not sure what came over me. It wont happen again Sir. I placated him quickly before taking my excuse note for second period. Second period was definitely interesting. The whispering started as soon as I walked in the door, even the Mr. Wu speaking sharply didnt seem to stop it. I slouched in my seat and waited for the bell. I made my way towards my locker grinning at Lilly, before slapping her a discreet five. Plans a go. Stay, Watch, Learn. I we stood for a moment as we watched my Dads deputy walk a police dog through the halls, inefficiently trying to avoid bumping into the students hurrying to their next classes. Clemmons was with him of course. Dick Casablancas! Keep the locker door open. Clemmons voice boomed across the hallway. Dick didnt speak as he moved silently to the side giving Clemmons and Sacks access to his locker. Whats this Dick? It looks like, Buster started going nuts, marijuana. Clemmons pulled the rather large baggie out of the locker, moving to allow Deputy Sacks room. I smiled as Sacks read Dick his rights. Lilly nudged me and we high fived again. Phase two completed! I laughed out right as Dicks eyes landed on me. It was you! I know it was you! Ill get you for this Veronica Mars! Dick was shouting at me now as I pretending to be scared, moving quickly back against my locker. I let my eyes widen a little and I bit my lip, the perfect part. Shut it! Sacks voice cut in, not the time to be issuing threats Mr. Casablancas. Someone call my father! Dick shouted as he struggled against the handcuffs. Already done, Dick, hell be meeting you at the station. Clemmons voice, slightly gruff, and definitely unimpressed. You know hell be back tomorrow right? Lilly whispered in my ear. Yep. Thats why there are phases three through twenty. Maybe more if we plan this right. I grinned at her. Dicks life was going to get decidedly worse in the days to come. Drug me? I dont think so. Revenge. It is the sweetest thing and definitely not better served cold. I still smile every time I remember the look on Dicks face as he realised what was in his locker. The really funny part about the whole set up? I didnt plant the pot. Dick brings it to school. He pays the school secretary to keep him off the search list. Most of the 09ers do. He should have remembered, I know all their little secrets. All of Dicks secrets with his big loud mouth. Made planning revenge so much easier. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 12	#11	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/13/06 21:32:34) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	The rest of the morning flew by. I was wicked nervous about lunch time. I knew Logan wouldnt forget the word I mouthed to him as he stared at me in the hall. I kept picturing different scenarios. Logan grabbing me and pulling me into a broom closet. Us skipping out on lunch and having sex on the beach. Sneaking into Clemmons office and my giving Logan a blow job against Clemmons desk. Not one of my little fantasies, as embarrassing as they were, prepared me for what actually happened. Logan was waiting at the door to my class as the lunch bell rang. He must have skipped out of his class early. Unsmiling, looking kind of stern, he grabbed me by my elbow and led me quickly out of the school towards the Xterra. Not a word was spoken between us. I felt like I was being marched to face the firing squad. Id been thinking of this all morning, but this definitely wasnt what I pictured. We reached the Xterra in a matter of minutes, but Logan didnt open the door, instead he pressed me against it and pressed his mouth to mine. I had thought the kiss in the hallway was something, but this? This Kiss? Blew it out of the water. I could feel him all the way down to my toes as he pressed against me, his mouth slanted over mine. Tongue worming its way into my mouth as he licked my pallet, teeth biting gently at my lips until they stung. He moved me gently to the side without breaking the kiss, I could hear the jingle of keys and then the support at my back disappeared as he pushed me roughly into the backseat. Hands under my thighs as he practically tossed me in. The door was still wide open as he stood outside the vehicle, standing between my spread legs. My feet still dangling off the seat and out the door. I opened my mouth to draw breath to speak and, he stole it. Thumbs pressing into the hollows of my hips bones as he stared at me. Logan can do the intense stare better than anyone I know. He seemed to be searching for something before he nodded once and reached for my belt. My pants were down around my knees before I managed to break eye contact, I realised the door was still wide open. Logan the door. I whispered frantically as I tried to grab his hands. Head thrashing back as his long talented fingers thrust in, once, twice, three times into the very centre of me, and I didnt care anymore. Didnt care that anyone could see, probably would, had, could see exactly what he was doing with me. Logan uses his free hand to press my legs up further, hindered by my pants around my knees, hes watching my face, waiting for something, and there it is. Hes touching this spot, something, and Im thrusting against his hand and mewling like a little kitten in a matter of seconds. Smiling now, broad and smug, as he pulls his fingers from me and pushes me the rest of the way into the Xterra, I try to help, scrambling backwards as he struggles in after me, his face between my legs even as hes trying to pull the door closed with one hand, and pushing my pants down further with the other. I find it odd that we still havent spoken to each other. The doors finally closed and hes giving me his full attention. I can tell, Im about three seconds away from exploding all over his hand and face. Logans nothing if not talented. He hasnt touched my breasts, or any other part of me for that matter, other than my face, lips, and there. Hes touching me there so gently now that I cant get there. Harder, I whisper out as I push my hips frantically against his hand. Im sure Ill remember to be embarrassed later. Please, my voice is trembling, husky, it doesnt sound like me at all, but Im sure it is because Logans making eye contact and making decisions I know nothing about, all in the span of a heart beat. The sound of him undoing his belt is loud, louder than the sound of my panting breaths and moans. I look questioningly at him, wondering if were really, if hes if this is I cant even form the thought as hes moving up over me. Logans pants are down around his knees but hes at least taken mine all the way off. My legs are spread one up on the back of the seat, and Im scared. I may not be a virgin anymore, but I dont remember the other. Trust me Veronica, stop thinking and trust me. His words are mumbled against the skin of my throat and oddly enough, I do. I trust him. He slides slickly against my wet folds, hot and hard, but soft at the same time. I can feel the head of his cock nudging at my clit and I cant hold the moan in. Cant stop it from breaking free as he gives me the friction Ive been dying for. Hes going too slow, too fast, too everything, not hard enough, not soft enough. I cant stop myself from clutching at him as I try not to lose my mind, try not to claw him to shreds as I struggle to find something to hold onto. I can hear him whispering, but I cant make out the words against my ear. The harsh panting breaths of air are hot against my neck as he thrusts harder, faster, I can feel him tensing against me, and its over. Done. We crossed the finish line panting like marathon runners. Running had never felt this good. I can feel myself clutching at him, at his cock with my, with I can feel myself clutching at him as my orgasm overtakes me, trying to suck him inside, drawn him in so that this feeling lasts forever. His sticky fluids are all over my stomach, my pubic hair and hes chuckling softly, pressing soft kisses against my neck as he tries to regain his breath. His arms are shaking, I can feel them against me, trembling ever so slightly, straining with the effort to keep himself from crushing me. I close my eyes and breathe in deeply. I can smell us, thick and heady in the air, and its starting all over again. The wetness between my legs increasing as I remember, imagine what hed feel like actually inside. Classes are about to start. We should go clean up Logans voice is a soft, low, rumble against my ear, and I can feel the disappointment well up inside. I was hoping thinking, but apparently he doesnt think, or want the same things. Youll have to move. My voice is equally as soft as his, scratchy with dryness, my throat sore. I chuckled lightly as he groaned before pulling away, our bodies clinging together. I wiped the sticky fluids away with a couple of left over McDonalds napkins he had stashed behind his seat, it would have to do until I could get to a bathroom. We dressed in record time and were standing outside the Xterra when he looked at me. Really looked at me. Veronica Logans voice trailed off into uncertainty and I decided now was not the time to confess my affections. Dont worry about it Logan. It is what it is. I pressed myself against him and kissed him. Hot, hard, messy, thorough, before I turned and slowly sauntered casually back towards the school. If he saw my face right now hed know it was an act. Hed know I was lying about it being what it is. This wasnt an is, this? This was the whole damn thing. Im actually quite proud of myself for that day. Not only did I manage to step outside my shell, I also managed not to hyperventilate until I was alone in the girls bathroom. Quite a feat considering what a mess I was. Two mind numbing orgasms in as many days and I was done. Id made up my mind if he didnt want me romantically, Id make him want me sexually. Sex is a weapon as Lilly always says. I planned to wield it with mighty force. Speaking of Lilly, we had plans for that night, phase three of the screw Dick over plan. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 13	#12	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/14/06 16:23:12) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	The rest of the school day went by with lots of intense Logan stares. No one leans the way Logan leans, against lockers, walls, the janitorial closets. That spawned a few more fantasies. I ditched out of my last class to avoid him but he still somehow managed to be leaning against my car when I got there. I still dont understand how he does that. Anticipates what Im going to do before I do it. Its really annoying. You gonna run away again Ver-ronica? Logans voice was tense as we faced each other. I could see the stiff line of his shoulders as he crossed his arms, leaning casually back against my car. His body language screamed anything but casual. I havent been avoiding you Logan, you been drinking during the school day again? I smirked outside, while inside, my stomach quivered. The last thing I needed right now was a confrontation with Logan. What would you call moving in the opposite direction every time I get near you? He raised an eyebrow as I stepped closer to him. You looking for a repeat performance? Cause with the top down on my car there isnt much privacy. I smiled at him, hoping to diffuse the situation before Logan got out of control. Funny. We need to talk. Now. Logans voice remained firm and he didnt smile. One of his hands moved towards me and I was sure hed changed his mind. Right up until he grabbed my arm and practically shoved me into my car, hopping in beside me he said only one word. Drive. Apparently the confrontation was unavoidable. I started the car and slowly pulled out of the parking lot, Logan sitting beside me. Where too Master Mine? I said sarcastically. When confronted with a stern Logan Echolls always resort to sarcasm. Just drive. He stated, voice still tense. He turned his head to look at me with those intense eyes again and I shifted uncomfortably in the drivers seat. What is this Veronica? A way to rebel, you want to be more like Lilly is that it? Use the great Logan Echolls for your own ends? His voice sounded hurt. I turned to look at him when I pulled to a stop at a red light. I could read the hurt plainly on his face. Im not sure what this is Logan. What do you want it to be? I asked softly, as I pulled away from the light. Driving aimlessly had never been my strong suite. I was driving in circles. It obviously doesnt matter what I want Veronica. Im asking what you want. His tone was softer now, gentler, and Im not sure I liked this Logan better than stern Logan. I I trailed off after a moments hesitation before I finally screwed up my courage. Would you like to come for dinner? For real with my Mom and Dad? My voice came out hesitant and I refused to look at him. Id like that Veronica. He smiled at me, I could see the blinding whiteness of his teeth out of the corner of my eye, the hurt was slowly fading. Im not sure what this is Logan. But Id like to find out, if youre willing that is. I smiled for a moment, putting myself out there for him, and he didnt disappoint. One day at a time. I can handle that. As for willing ready, willing, and able Maam! He snapped a salute and I burst out laughing. See? Thats what Ive been missing. He smiled again, a wide grin, before he gently rubbed a knuckle down my cheek. You should laugh more Veronica. His voice was even softer now, almost drowned out by the roar of the car engine. When I find things to smile about, Ill smile. I grinned for a moment, moving my face into his hand, before I pulled back into the school parking lot. Ive got to get ready for my night on the town with Lilly. I hesitated before leaning over and kissing him softly on the mouth. Ill call you later and well talk about dinner. I smiled as he pressed a soft kiss to my forehead before getting out of the car. Make sure you do. I dont want to have to chase you all over Neptune again, although I will if you make me. He grinned before jauntily moving away, there was a definite bounce in his step. Dinner with my parents didnt sound so bad. I could get my Dad used to the idea of Logan, explore my feelings for him, and get him to stop following me around all in one fell swoop. It was a plan. I had to hurry and get home after that, Im pretty certain I broke at least a dozen traffic laws on my way. Lilly was picking me up in less than an hour. So where we going tonight? I was genuinely curious. Lilly had been all mysterious since picking me up fifteen minutes before. Dog Beach. Theres a bonfire tonight. Lilly turned her head and smiled at me quickly, and before you freak out, Dicks grounded and will not be there. I made sure just for you. She smiled again at my sigh of relief. We made good time to the beach, getting out of the SUV, Lilly handed me the keys. Im gonna have a few beers, you drive. Nodding quickly, we made our way towards the fire down the beach. I could see Logan in the firelight, his eyes found me the moment we stepped on the beach and he never once looked away as we made our way towards him. Without a word he handed Lilly a beer and then put his arm around my shoulders. Veronica, wasnt expecting to see you quite so soon. I could hear the smile in his voice, I couldnt help but smile back. Lillys idea. I laughed at his disappointed look. But it was definitely a good one. He kissed my cheek before wrapping his other arm around Lilly. So what kind of trouble are my two favourite girls going to be getting up to tonight? He smirked at the both of us in turn. Drunken debauchery. You know, the usual. Lilly laughed as she shrugged off Logans arm, making her way around the fire to a group of 09er boys, leaving us alone. Im glad you decided to come. Logans voice was gentle as he stared down at me, his arm tightening for a moment in a half hug. Lilly didnt give me much choice, but Im kind of glad I did too. I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed his chin. Good thing its a Friday! I laughed as I watched Lilly begin chugging beers. The party progressed along its natural course through the night, Lilly getting more intoxicated at each passing hour. Logan continued to nurse the same beer as they sat in companionable silence. I made my apology to Logan and headed towards Lilly. I had a question that I might actually get answers to now that Lilly was intoxicated and more free with her words. Lilly! I yelled above the roar of the fire. She turned to face me and leaning against me and putting her head on my shoulder. How do I tell my Dad? I asked quietly into her ear. The question had been bothering me since the night that Lilly had told me we were probably related. I still hadnt figured out a solution. I had no idea how to tell my Dad that my Mother was an adulteress. Thats the good thing about the whole situation Veronica Mars. He already knows, has all along. She slurred out, before turning quickly away towards some guy attempting to get her attention. My Father had known. He knew and hadnt told me. The words swirled around in my head as I stumbled away from Lilly, away from the fire, away from, just away. I could feel the tears flowing down my cheeks the cool wetness stinging my face in the cool night air. I couldnt see anything. I felt a hand gently touch my shoulder and I swung around, barely missing Logans face with my elbow. Veronica? You okay? His voice was soft and hesitant, but he kept his hand firmly on my shoulder, offering comfort. Did Lilly say something? Doesnt she always? I asked through my sniffles. Did she say something about us? His voice had gotten lower as he attempted to pull me closer, but suddenly I was angry. Rage bubbled up from my stomach and threatened to spill out of my mouth. I shoved him away before glaring at him, brushing angrily at the tears on my cheeks, Not everything is about you Logan. Get over yourself. I moved to leave quickly wanting nothing more than to escape. Logan of course, wouldnt let me go. He grabbed my arm pulling me around to face him. I was just asking Veronica, dont get all defensive. If it wasnt about me, what did she say that got you so upset? Why are you crying? Talk to me Veronica, dont run. I didnt want to hear it, didnt want to listen to anything he had to say. I shook him off and turned away. Drop it Logan, its none of your business. I stalked off and this time he let me go, his voice echoing after me. Youre my business Veronica. I didnt pause, didnt turn, I just kept moving away from him. I went looking for Lilly. I wanted to go home. Wanted out of here. Lilly of course was nowhere to be found. I searched for more than an hour and still couldnt find her. Id learned that the PCH Bike Club had been by to see the festivities, being quickly sent away by Logan and the rest of his posse with a few beers and minimal violence. No one had seen Lilly since. I was tried and frustrated. Lilly had apparently ditched me. I really shouldnt be surprised, Lilly had a habit of disappearing on me when shed had a few too much to drink. But tonight, after everything that had happened. The revelation, the fight with Logan, tonight really wasnt the time to be pulling a disappearing act. I finally gave up, heading towards the SUV. Id return it to Lilly tomorrow, but I needed to get out of here now. I unlocked the drivers side door, quickly opening it, and heard a loud curse from the back seat. That definitely wasnt Lilly. Whos there? My voice came out frightened, I drew a deep breath before quickly swinging the back door open. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. One, Eli Weevil Navarro was on the backseat, pants around his ankles, Lilly kneeling in the crawlspace at his feet, her lips wrapped around his cock. Lilly was giving Weevil a blowjob. I stood there for a moment, mouth hanging open in shock, when Lillys eyes rolled towards me, not even slowing in her fast strokes of the boys dick. She winked at me. Lilly winked at me, with her lips wrapped around she winked at me. Weevil was cursing steadily his hands buried in Lillys hair and I couldnt tell if he was pulling her closer or trying to push her away. Beat it blondie, this isnt a spectator sport. He ground out between clenched teeth. Lilly must have done something when he said that, because his eyes were rolling up, and his hips were bucking, and I still couldnt pull my gaze away. Eli Navarro had just came in Lillys mouth. I learned something new today. Lilly swallowed. I slammed the door quickly, trying to slow my rapidly racing heart, fingers going to my chest to feel the drumming tattoo under my fingers. I was panting. Lilly and Weevil. They came stumbling out of the back seat a few moments later. Weevil looking embarrassed but Lilly just looked smug. I wouldnt meet either of their eyes. You better be able to keep a secret Mars. I couldnt help but laugh. Secrets. The whole big mess of my life started with a secret, it seemed fitting. One condition Weevil. I emphasized his name letting it drip off my tongue. Im not sure how I made my voice so steady when my heart was still racing. Whats that? He was genuinely curious, and I finally noticed, he wasnt meeting Lillys gaze either. She was conspicuously silent through the whole exchange. Drive me home. I dont think anyone was more shocked than myself at my statement. Deal. He moved towards his Bike, which Id previously not noticed, on the other side of the SUV, handing me a helmet. I hopped on as he revved the engine. I didnt look back at Lilly as we sped away. The ride home was uneventful. Let me tell you, theres nothing that compares to the feel of a big ol hog between your thighs. The hum of the engine, a biker in front of you, if I wasnt so hung up on Logan no, it still wouldnt happen. Logan was far enough out of my league; Weevil would have eaten me for breakfast. After wed pulled up in front of my house, I got off the bike, silently handing Weevil his helmet. I slowly made my way to the front door where I could see my father waiting for me. Was that Eli Navarro I saw? His voice was curious and stern all at the same time. A tone only my Father could pull off with any sort of accuracy. Yes. My voice was succinct. I met his gaze and suddenly the anger was back. Rage bubbling up from inside me and it was flowing out of me, burning in my eyes as I stared at him. Hed known all along. Whats gotten into you Veronica? First Logan? Now Weevil? Is this one of those teenage rebellion things Ive read so much about? He made it into a joke, but I could hear the underlying concern in his voice. It was all a lie. I figured Id act like what I am Dad. I put a sarcastic inflection on the word as I removed my sandals, barely glancing at him as I hung up my coat heading towards my bedroom. And just what IS that Veronica? Now he sounded angry. Good. I wanted him angry. I turned to stare at him for a moment, standing in the dimly lit hallway. My whole life was a lie. Hed known all along. Lilly wouldnt lie about something like that. Hed known and he hadnt told me. Hed kept it a secret. The one man a girl could depend on was supposed to be her Daddy, but apparently both of mine had failed me. A Kane. My voice was clipped as I slammed my bedroom door, his shocked face still staring at me from the hallway. Apparently all the secrets were out in the open now. My father and I had never fought like that before. We havent since either. I love my Father. Im truly blessed to have him in my life. I was pretty certain Id never get over the betrayal. Hed lied, when hed always preached honesty. He may not have outright lied by telling me, No Jake Kane is not your father, but he lied by omission. I didnt know who I was anymore. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 14	#13	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/14/06 16:24:06) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	I hate fighting with my father. I love him, he loves me, I know this. I really know this, but when we fight? I feel like my world is ending. This was the fight to end all fights. Lilly had told me that my Dad had known that I wasnt his, that hed known all along, and I wasnt sure I could forgive him. Logan well he wasnt willing to give up. Hed told me hed chase me all over Neptune if he had too. He did. Have too, I mean, I ran like a scared little girl. Thank god that boy is persistent. Id been avoiding Logan and Lilly all week. Doing a pretty darn good job of it too, except for classes. Classes in which I refused to make eye contact, I sat as far away from both of them as I possibly could. I just wasnt ready to deal yet. It was Friday, a week after the beach party from hell. I hadnt spoken to my parents all week, locking myself in my room to avoid them. I wasnt sure how much longer theyd let it go on, but I was taking the time I could get for now. The final bell rang and I slowly got up from my seat, gathering my books and heading to my locker. When I saw Lilly leaning against my locker I made a detour to the bathroom. Id wait her out, Lilly wasnt known for her patience. I was washing my face when I heard the door open behind me. I glanced up into the mirror and froze in shock. Eli Weevil Navarro stood behind me, leaning against the closed bathroom door. Youre one hard chica to track down V. He smirked at me, and I felt my stomach clench. This was so not going to be good. V? Little familiar dont you think? I moved slowly to the paper towel dispenser, my eyes meeting his in the mirror. Veronicas a bit of a mouthful for me. Im slow, got to keep things simple. He chuckled for a moment before his gaze turned serious again. You got to stop avoiding Lilly. I have to do no such thing. The words were out of my mouth before I could stop them. I startled myself with the steely tone of voice. I didnt sound like me. Yes. You do. Shes sorry she embarrassed you. Shes sorry you found her like that. She wont shut up about missing you, so if you dont stop avoiding her Im going to be driven insane by the blonde bitch. He smiled at me, the first genuine smile Id ever seen on his face. Blonde bitch huh? I smiled; apparently Weevil did know Lilly quite well. Yah, and before you ask, I call her that to her face. Shes a bitch and she knows it, quite proud of it too. He laughed outright now. Fine. Ill stop avoiding Lilly. But not today, today I just want to go home and avoid the rest of the world. I sighed, slinging my book-bag back onto my shoulder. Weevil held the door open for me as we exited the washroom, Just make sure its soon, Im not sure how much more I can take before I wring her skinny little neck. He smiled at me, before nudging my shoulder with his. That was officially the strangest conversation Id ever had in my entire life, in the girls washroom to boot. Sometimes I questioned the sanity of my fellow peers. Logan was standing beside the door when Weevil and I exited. He fell into step beside me. Were going to talk eventually you know. He said it almost casually, not even glancing at Weevil. I know. Today? I really wasnt looking forward to going home. Logan was the lesser of two evils. The surprised look on his face told me he wasnt expecting me to give in so easily. Nows good. He slung his arm over my shoulder and continued to walk me to my locker. I felt comfortable for the first time in a week. I probably shouldnt have avoided him so long. Lilly gave me some distressing news at the party last Friday. Im sorry I over reacted to it, to what you said. You Im sorry I yelled at you. I spoke as quickly as I could, trying to get the words out in a rush before I lost my nerve. Logan looked so shocked I couldnt help but laugh. Apparently he was expecting me to put up a fight, or at least argue with him. Okay and now? He said it hesitantly, like he was trying to see where this conversation was going. Now Im not so upset. Now Im apologizing and youre supposed to accept it gracefully. I smiled up at him, a genuinely sweet smile, at his look of confusion I laughed again. Logans cute when hes caught off guard. I pressed against his front, leaning up and placing a gentle kiss on his lips. I meant it when I said I wanted to see what this is. What we could be. His smile nearly split his face, I couldnt help but return it, smiling widely and staring up at him. Logan leaned down placing a gentle kiss on my lips as he took my book bag from my hands. Ill carry that. We walked from my locker and out the doors, heading towards my Le Baron. What are you doing right now? Walking to my car with you? I asked in confusion. He let out a loud laugh as he lightly pinched my cheek. And after we get to your car? Are you going to get in and drive home to your house and not speak to me for the rest of the weekend? Or are you going to give in gracefully and go hang out with me? His voice was gentle and teasing. You. Im definitely doing you. I smiled as his smile turned wicked. Doing me, Mars? Im shocked at your language for such a good girl. He bumped his shoulder gently into mine as he teased me. Im not a good girl, Logan. Im just drawn that way. I mangled the Jessica Rabbit line to suit my own purposes, and it worked, Logan was laughing harder now. Id like to say I believe you Sugar puss, but we both know that isnt true. He pressed me up against the door of my car placing a gentle, but thorough kiss on my lips. Pulling back he stared into my eyes for a moment, I kind of like the fact youre a good girl. His voice was gentle, unsure of what my response would be. Well then, well have to work on getting me to behave. I laughed, as he pressed closer. What did you have in mind for today? I asked quickly as I grabbed my bag from him, throwing it into the back seat. Wanna share an ice cream soda at the local ice cream parlour? Logan snarked as he snaked his arm around my waist. How about the beach? We could go get Back-up and take him for a walk? His breath tickled my neck as I nodded. Ill meet you there in half an hour. Go get that menace of yours and Ill see you then. He turned me around and placed a soft kiss on my forehead. Until then my sweet. And he was gone, heading towards the Xterra before I even had the chance to respond. Logan was always doing that. Saying something and then just leaving before I had a chance to say anything at all. He still does it when we fight, drives me absolutely insane. I think thats why he does it, cause he knows it gets to me. We spent the afternoon at the beach; my parents hadnt been home when Id gone to get Back-up. Im not sure how much of a damper that would have put on my afternoon. Logan followed me back to my place; wed made plans to watch a movie. Those plans quickly fell through when I got home. My Mom and Dad were waiting in the living room when we walked through the door. The look on my Dads face alone was enough to give the situation away. My running days were over; they werent going to put up with the silent treatment anymore. So much for avoiding the situation. I turned to Logan and gave him an apologetic smile. The gig is up. Time for you to go home. I leaned up and kissed him on the mouth, in front of my parents. Forgetting for a moment that Id seen Lilly do the exact same thing after the all night stint wed done in the limo. Apparently Logan remembered by the look on his face. Im not someone you can use to piss of your parents. His voice was slightly hard as he whispered to me; clearly Id upset him. I know. Im sorry, but weve been fighting all week and as you can tell by the looks on their faces apparently now is the time they want to talk. Well do a movie night when this gets all sorted out. I promised, providing I wasnt grounded for the rest of my natural life. Logan nodded shortly, apparently still unsure of my intentions. Id have to prove myself to him later. I pushed him gently towards the door, shutting it gently behind him and staring at it for a few minutes before I turned slowly. I felt like I was facing the firing squad. Veronica I was surprised hed managed to stay silent so long; normally hed have been booting Logan out the door so he could berate me in private. Veronica, this isnt going to be an easy conversation. Im not sure who well okay I know who it must have been, but its more complicated than that. He smiled gently and I felt the anger well up again. Sure. I wouldnt understand, I dont know, how could I? You never TOLD me! It probably wasnt the best idea to raise my voice to my Father. Badness lies that way. Youre right, obviously my surprise showed on my face because he snorted gently, my mother had yet to say a word, youre right, we never told you, we didnt think it was an issue. Youre mine in every way that counts. How could you not be? You have the Mars family charm. He smiled gently, still sitting calmly on the couch. My mother finally spoke up, her voice shaking as she wiped a tear from the corner of her eye, Im not sure. Im not sure who your blood Father is Veronica, but in every way that really matters She trailed off as I broke in. Every way that matters? How about if I suddenly need a kidney and Keith here isnt a match? Isnt my father? Medical history how about the fact I may have been dating my BROTHER and no one thought to mention it? Does that not matter? I was angry and hostile, but I had a right to be. Again youre right, we should have told you, but were telling you now. Weve also decided its time to have that paternity test. He smiled gently again, all loving concern and patience. My father, ladies and gentlemen, the pacifist Sheriff. Apparently theyd decided enough was enough. A paternity test would put to rest all of our issues only it wouldnt. It wouldnt change the fact that theyd lied to me. It wouldnt change the fact that I could have committed incest. It wouldnt change the fact that I might not be who I thought I was. Things have a way of working themselves out. They always do. I just had to wait for the results of the test, and then re-evaluate where my life stood. Who I was, because if I wasnt Veronica Mars anymore, did I want to be Veronica Kane? Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 15	#14	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/14/06 16:26:18) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Surprisingly enough I didnt get grounded for giving my parents a full week of the silent treatment. There were no recriminations at all really, my Mom was solicitous, my Dad was contrite, and I apparently walked on water. Logan and I were getting along well, I was doing my damned best to prove to him I wasnt like Lilly. Not really, not where it counted. Logan was driving me home after school. Wed made plans to get together and watch movies, tame and boring, but watching movies with Logan was a whole new experience. He openly mocked the actors that hed known since he was a small infant, having lived in and around them his whole life. He made fun of their acting ability, their clothes, told anecdotes on their personal lives, this one was a junkie, that one had affairs, that one was really gay, and he always carried on until the end of the movie. It was like being at a movie with a professional heckler. I had never spent so much time laughing in my entire life. My face actually hurt at the end of the day from smiling so much. Life, life was good at the moment, even with the test of doom hanging over my head. Id decided I couldnt wait for the DNA test my Dad had scheduled. To be honest three days after Lilly had let the big secret out, that I might be a Kane, Id ordered a DNA test online, they send you a package, a few drops of blood and a few weeks later youd have your results. Id held off on actually doing the test. Until Lilly had dropped the second bombshell that my father had known all along he wasnt my father. I tried not to feel guilty, tricking my dad into doing the DNA test. I tried to think of it as the right thing for me. No matter the results, he was my father, but I had to know. Had to know if Duncan and I were actually related, if only for my own peace of mind. Id told my father it was for a health class project, convinced him I was squeamish; it had been all too easy to lie right to his face. Hed pricked his finger without a fuss, smiling at me. I think he was just glad to be back to semi-normal, without the silent treatment. Lilly and I had dubbed it the test of doom, there was an elaborate naming ceremony as Id poked myself with the tester stick to place on the small sheet of paper. I already had my fathers; Lilly came with me when I dropped the envelope in the mail. Shed held my hand and told me we were sisters no matter what the results were. I was drawn out of my thoughts by Logans arm sliding around me. He placed a soft kiss on the back of my neck, before his voice whispered in my ear, How about we skip the movie and go to the beach? Well go to your place, get your suit, and well go swim in the ocean like dolphins. I could hear the smile in his voice. You just want to go surfing with the boys! I laughed out before turning in his arms to place a kiss on his cheek. Guilty as charged Sugar puss. He laughed. No deal. You promised me movies. I pouted for a moment and he gave in gracefully, or not gracefully if the long suffering sigh was anything to go by. Okay. Movies at your place, dinner with your family, and then, maybe, just maybe if Im a good boy, a walk on the beach? He tilted his head and batted his eyelashes at me and I couldnt help but laugh. Youre such a ham! As for the good boy part, I much prefer you when you act like yourself. I puckered my lips and blew him a raspberry. I finished up in my locker and he slung his arm around my shoulder, leading me out of the school. Cmon Veronica, you know I try to be a good boy for you. His voice was high-pitched and very little boy-esque. I laughed up into his face, which meant I wasnt watching where I was going and bumped into someone. I stopped to apologise, the words stumbling out of my mouth, as I blushed. The young man I bumped into laughed it off, smiling as Logan tried ineffectually to pull me away. Dont worry bout it superfly. No big, no bruises, no broken bones. He smiled and I couldnt help but notice the whiteness of his teeth against his dark skin. He has a beautiful smile. Veronica Mars. I held out my hand for him to shake as Logan rolled his eyes. Wallace Fennel. He shook my hand before gently dropping it, probably because of Logans scowl. As you can probably tell its my first day here. Im not quite sure what to make of the place. Ive gotten lost more times than I can count today. He laughed self-depreciatively before shaking his head. Look for us tomorrow at lunch. Well be in the quad, Ill give you a tour. I smiled and then laughed outright at the look on Logans face. This is Logan, since hes too rude to introduce himself. Logan Echolls. I watched the recognition slide across Wallaces face and smiled knowingly. Of the Hollywood Echolls. I said in my best snooty voice. Wallace laughed; Logan scowled more, tugging on my hand, yet to say a word. Sometimes he could be so rude. But Ive got to be going, tomorrow, lunch, quad! Dont forget! I waved as Logan practically dragged me away. It wouldnt kill you to be friendly once in awhile you know. He wouldnt have given you cooties. My voice sounded sterner than Id meant it too, I smiled to soften the effect. For you? Ill be friendly tomorrow, but today! Today we have plans! Logan laughingly swung me up and around in his arms, spinning me around twice before setting me on my feet. Get your cute little ass in the car, we have movies, and the sooner we get the movies and dinner over with, the sooner we get to the beach! He practically shoved me in the door. I was laughing so hard I could barely catch my breath. Sometimes Logan bordered on the ridiculous. His enthusiasm at times was absolutely over the top. It was one of the reasons I loved him. Loved him. I paused, my laughter dying abruptly. Oh shit. Sudden realisations, they tend to knock your feet out from underneath you. Or your whole world, Im not even sure how it happened. One second I was enjoying myself, hanging out and having a good time, and the next second? I was head over heals I love with Logan Echolls. Logan got into the truck still smiling, but it faded away as he noticed the look on my face. You okay Veronica? His voice sounded concerned and unsure; obviously he wasnt sure what had changed in his walk around the vehicle. Im fine, I hesitated for a moment before I said the only thing that came to mind, I just remembered I have an essay due for AP English, Ill work on it tonight. I smiled, but I could tell it looked forced. That look came from an essay? I was sure youd been told the world was ending tomorrow. He tried to make light of the situation, making a joke like he always did. It didnt lighten my mood. Im in love with Logan Echolls. I turned to stare at him as he started the vehicle, taking in his profile, the set to his jaw, and the line of his nose. See something you like? He smirked as he turned to face me, meeting my eyes before putting the truck in gear and pulling out of the parking lot. Yes. As a matter of fact I do. I smiled when he grinned before continuing. See that cute guy over there, the one with the blonde highlights? Hes totally hot. I managed to say it with such a straight face that Logan actually turned around to stare. I burst out laughing at the look on his face. You, you think youre so cute dont you. His voice was gruff as he leaned over to kiss me lightly. He slowly pulled out of the parking lot, focusing on the road. You sure I cant convince you to change our plans? Do something other than movies before we have dinner with your parents? He smiled that smile, the one that told me he was up too something. Not the beach, what else did you have in mind? I smiled at him. There was no way I could tell him how I felt. Not now, not till things were settled between us. Youll see Veronica. Youll see. I love it when he plays the mysterious card. Logan has a romantic streak as big as the Grand Canyon. It used to annoy Lilly to no end, but there was something about a guy that loved to keep you on your toes that had me smiling at odd times. When we pulled up to the boardwalk I was slightly confused, even more so when Logan held my door open, helped me out, but led me in the opposite direction of the actual boardwalk. Where are we going? I craned my head back to see the festival behind us. Here. He stopped in front of a small store, no signs, just an address on the front door. Logan? I asked questioningly, this was odd even for Logan. He opened the front door, holding it open for me, and ushering me inside. The shop was small and intimate, a front desk, a vase of fresh flowers. The walls were white, the carpet was grey, and I still had absolutely no clue as to why we were here. A tiny woman came from a concealed back room, stepping gracefully to the front desk, and smiling at Logan. Mr. Echolls, youre early. We werent expecting you until eight thirty. Her smile was friendly; I could tell she dealt with difficult people on a regular basis. Some of our plans fell through Sandy, could you possibly fit us in now? He smiled that charming smile and I could feel the room suddenly heat up a few degrees. As a matter of fact we can. Yours was the last appointment of the day. This way we can take care of you and then call it a day. She smiled as she stood up; she finally turned towards me, extending her hand. Cassandra Cruise, she paused for a moment before smiling, no relation to Tom Cruise. We shook hands, my grip slightly unsure. I still had no idea what was going on. Logan took my arm as he led me through the partition behind the desk; it wasnt hidden at all, just an optical illusion, looking like one solid wall. We stepped into the back room, which had hard wood floors, and mirrors, hundreds of mirrors lining the walls. Logan had taken me to a dance studio. Ballroom dancing, the dance of love, elegance, and style. He smiled at my unsure gaze. Moms having a soiree next month, formal, traditional dancing, I would be honoured if you would considering the invitation of attending as my guest. He bowed low over my hand before smirking at me. And this way, I wont step on your toes and squash them into mush. I couldnt help but laugh. This was probably the weirdest gift Id ever received. Youre not afraid Id step on your toes? I asked curiously. Nope. You weigh about as much as a mouse, if you step on my toes the worst youll do is get closer to me. He grinned, laughing as I lightly smacked his arm. Cassandra called us over and our first dance lesson commenced. Dance lessons with Logan Echolls. Who would have thought? I mean, hes not exactly the most social person, and to want to take me to a shindig his parents were throwing? That was a huge step. At this point I was still refusing to hope that he might love me. I knew he liked me, wanted me, but I wasnt holding out for love. We danced, we laughed, and we stepped on each others toes. By the end of the night my toes were black and blue and I was threatening to buy steel-toed dancing shoes. Logans feet werent doing much better, for all his jokes about my weighing next to nothing; apparently stepping at the wrong moment could lead to severe bruising. We barely made it back to my house in time for dinner. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 16	#15	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/15/06 21:39:48) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Dinner was supposed to be a quiet affair. Mom, Dad, Logan, and I all sitting around a table sharing a quiet meal, but that was before we walked through the door and my mom waved a manila envelope in my direction. Id gotten mail. The test to be exact. The results were in. I stood frozen in the entry way as I looked at the envelope my mother held in her hands. Logan, having not expected me to stop so suddenly, bumped into my back. He wrapped his arms around me and placed a quick kiss on my shoulder. Move it, babe, traffic jams are so pass. I could feel him smiling against my shoulder. I moved towards my mother, slow motion style, or maybe that was just in my head. I wasnt sure if I was ready to read the results. Thanks Mom. Logan and I are going to be in my room. Ill leave the door open. I cut her off before she could make the request. I grabbed Logans hand and dragged him down the hallway into my room, glancing out before I shut the door slightly; just enough so that Id have warning before one of my parents stepped through. Logan? I need you to be very, very quiet for a few minutes. This is important. My eyes didnt leave the envelope as I spoke to him. His arms slipped around my waist, holding me close, and I felt him nod against me. Logan didnt say a word. I tore the envelope open slowly, pulling the top sheet of paper out. I stared at it for a few minutes, the words blurring before my eyes, before I sagged against Logan. Um Logan trailed off as he read over my shoulder, why did you need a paternity test Veronica? Something youre not telling me? He was still holding me gently against him, which was good, I wasnt sure I had the strength to stand on my own. My mom had an affair with another man. Well technically the affair was with my father. The words came out on a breathless rush; once the floodgates opened I couldnt seem to stop them. She was with Jake Kane. Theyd been together on and off since high school, sweethearts. He was married to Celeste, but still kept my mom around, and then she met my dad. There wasnt enough time between them. She wasnt sure and my dad didnt care, so I trailed off into uncertainty as Logan went very still behind me. Thats why Duncan broke up with you? Because he thought Apparently Logan was capable of losing his voice, his trailed off into nothingness. Lilly told me, the day of the car wash, shed over heard Celeste and Duncan talking, she felt I had the right to know. I was starting to tremble now. Everything catching up to me in the matter of minutes, I hadnt realised how much this was affecting me until now. So, are you disappointed? Logans voice sounded unsure. What? That Im not a Kane? I asked questioningly, but I knew thats not what Logan meant, he could be very transparent at times. Well yes, are you disappointed that youre not a Kane? And you and Duncan arent related, where does that He trailed off again, turning me in his arms so he could meet my eyes. I could see the worry there, a hint of fear. Logan Echolls was afraid of losing me. No, Im not disappointed that Im not a Kane. Im relieved, the thought of Duncan and I doing and what it would have meant. I shuddered visibly, Logans arms tightening around me. I just, had to know. I hugged him back, standing on tiptoes to place a gentle kiss on his mouth. As for where that leaves us right where we are. He broke up with me Logan, this doesnt change anything. I smiled at the relief on his face. Logan pressed a kiss to my lips, teeth nibbling at my lower lip, before pulling away. He let out a loud whooping yell and spun me up in the air. If he kept this up I was going to toss my cookies one of these times. Veronica? Youve never said, I mean, youve said you wanted to see what this could be, but youve never said, and I just want to, I mean if youre Logan trailed off after a moment, before he seemed to visibly pull himself together. He took a deep breath, pushing me towards my bed. Bending down he slid to one knee in front of me. My breath was caught in my throat. I was going to choke to death right here in my bedroom, on my own breath. Logan was on one knee in front of me, and he was reaching into his pocket, and oh my god Im only sixteen years old, we both are! What does he think hes doing! His hand came away from his pocket with a slip of paper. I had to write this down, cause Im more liable to forget myself in the heat of the moment. Logan unfolded the sheet of paper, scanning the contents quickly before he turned to look up at me. Veronica Mars, weve been seeing each other for a few weeks now. Theres been ups, theres been downs, theres been misdirection, and I dont want that to happen here. So Im going to say this plainly so that even a four year old could understand. Veronica Mars, he paused dramatically at this point, smirk lighting up his face, would you be my girlfriend? He unfolded his hand under mine and there in his palm was his science club pin from the sixth grade. I burst out laughing, I couldnt help it, trust Logan to pick the most romantic, idiotic way to ask me to be his girlfriend. Im not wearing that skeezy pin, and well see about the girlfriend bit. I grinned at him, winking when I saw his face start to fall. Hey, I figured you at least deserved a cheesy proposal. He grinned at me, white teeth flashing, small lines appearing at the corners of his eyes. Besides, I want to be able to say youre mine, do you know how many guys I had to tell to back off this month? Even Casey wanted to ask you on a date! He grumbled under his breath. I took his hand gently in mine, staring into his eyes for a moment before I said seriously, so if Im your girlfriend, does this mean youre going to help me with getting revenge on Dick? I smirked when he burst into laughter. Of course! Id already planned on it. He rubbed his hands together in glee; there was no other word to describe it. You know, honey, my voice gave honey a sarcastic lilt, with my evil genius and your brute strength? Well be unstoppable. I grinned wider as he laughed outright, falling off his knee to slide to the floor. Logans hand wrapped around my ankle, tugging gently, then harder until I fell from the bed, laughing and giggling on top of him. Im counting on it Veronica. Im counting on it. Logan asked me out in the most ridiculous way, I still remember the way he looked, down on one knee. I admit, I panicked; I seriously thought he was proposing. Its kind of sweet the way he needed to write his little speech down. Ive gotten quite used to it actually, anytime he has something seriously important to say, hell jot it down, so that he doesnt forget, losing himself in the heat of the moment. Id learned my paternity. I was officially a Mars. I had a brilliant idea, or at least an idea that I thought was brilliant. The Kane's, with the exception of Lilly, didnt need to know. Duncan didnt deserve the courtesy and neither did Jake and Celeste, theyd never bothered to find out before, why should it matter now. The plan was set for the following Friday. Dick was going to get what was coming to him, in front of the whole school. Logan and I had been planning, organizing, our time together fraught with evil manic laughter, as well as a few very bad Mr. Burns impersonations. Logan was down right scary when he was plotting with manic glee. Id had to take a step back, more than once, patting him on the arm until the fire disappeared from his eyes. I also had the feeling that this wouldnt be the only time Dick paid. This was only the beginning if Logans reaction was anything to go by. Apparently you werent supposed to drug the girl that Logan had an interest in. Dick should have known better, but apparently he liked to live dangerously, which was obvious when he took his life into his own hands. Whatcha doin? Logans voice sounded from behind me, making me jump. The boy moved like a cat, silent and stealthy, constantly scaring the crap out of me when I least expected it. Plotting world domination and you? I snarked. Sometimes Logan asked the stupidest questions. Im putting my books away so I can go and each lunch. I rolled my eyes. Ah! Lunch in the quad with the common folk, lets go princess. He held out his arm for me to take and I couldnt help but laugh at his ridiculousness. Remember, dance lesson tonight, Sandy wont be impressed if were late again. He smiled and rolled his eyes. Why do you call her Sandy anyway? I thought her name was Cassandra. I was a bit puzzled at Logans causal use of the name Sandy, and the way that Cassandra never batted an eyelash. Its a secret. Logan mimed zipping his lips and I hit him gently on the arm. Should I be jealous? I asked sweetly, laughing at the gleam that appeared in Logans eyes. Nope. Truth be told, Sandy is a cousin of sorts, married to one of my other cousins for a brief stint years ago. When I wanted to sign us up for dance lessons for Moms party, I couldnt think of a better person to call. He smiled and pulled me closer for a brief hug. Whats with the shop? I mean, no sign, no number you cant even tell its a dance studio from the outside. My curiosity was getting the better of me, as usual. Thats kind of the point. Sandy caters to the rich and elite, promises total anonymity so her clients can have two left feet, trip all over each other, and not be photographed by the paparazzi. He grinned at me. Something Im sure you appreciate. Logan winked at me, before laughing at my sour look. Wed made it to the quad just as the pizza guy showed up, Logan quickly paid for our lunch before setting the box on the table. I looked up to see Wallace hesitantly making his way over. Hey Wallace! Over here, I scooted over to let him sit on the other side of me, the side usually reserved for Lilly. Shed understand just this once. Lilly showed up a moment later and looked about ready to blow a gasket that someone was sitting in her place, I broke in quickly before she could alienate my new friend. Lilly? This is Wallace Fennel. Its his second day here at Neptune High, and you are going to play nice and be a good girl, for a change. I smiled at her and tilted my head. Im still amazed how well the head tilt works, even on Lilly, it usually got me whatever I wanted. Logan was especially susceptible to my ploy, caving loudly and for all to hear. Lilly looked at me for a moment, eyes inscrutable before she turned to Wallace. Hello Wallace. Im Lilly Kane, as youve no doubt heard all about me I wont give you details. Youre welcome to sit here anytime, just not there. My spot, so scoot over. She smiled winningly and I could see Wallace blushing, another one bites the dust thanks to Lilly Kane. Nice to meet you. So question? He raised his eyebrows at me not bothering to move over for Lilly. Ive been learning the social structure here at Neptune, Jocks, Cheerleaders, 09ers, and then everybody else. What did I do to be welcomed at the exclusive 09er table? He smiled as he said it but I could see the wariness in his eyes. You met me. I smiled, Logan laughed as he slung his arm tighter around my shoulders, Lilly was scowling now. Okay that sounded more conceited than I meant it to. I must be hanging out with Logan too much. I smirked at his indignant squawk. I patted Logans arm gently before focusing my attention once again on Wallace. Lilly, being Lilly and not liking to be ignored for any length of time, came around to our side of the table and plopped herself down in Wallaces lap. That was one way of getting her seat back. Oh! Youre comfy, I take it back, you sit here every day and Ill just sit on you. Lilly grinned her feline smile at Wallace, and I could see him mentally check himself. He pushed her gently off his lap and moved over a place like shed originally asked. Hey superfly, no need to get cozy. Hot blondes are great and all, but youre not really my type. He winked at Lilly, before smiling a wide smile at her indignant look. Not your type? Ill have you know Lilly Kane is every boys type. She smiled again, but her smile quickly turned to a frown as she heard the Not Mines being chorused around the table. Whatever. She turned towards me, quickly brushing the comments from her mind, So Veronica Mars, we are getting together on Friday right? She smiled again, but I could see the touch of mischief clinging to the corners of her lips. Cant on Friday, Lilly, you know that. Theres that big surf competition, and I promised Logan Id go with him. Heck, half the school is going to be there. I turned back towards Wallace, smiling as Lillys giggles were barely muffled by her hand, So hows about it Wallace? You up for a little sand and surf? I grinned when he nodded slowly. Sounds good. We easily slipped into conversation, Logan, Lilly, Wallace, and I, excluding most of the others as we chatted, before I knew it lunch hour was over and it was time to head back to class. Logan walked me to my first class of the afternoon, kissing my forehead before slowly pivoting away, Ill pick you up at your last class of the day, well go straight to the studio. He did a little finger wave and he was gone. Logan and I had filled Lilly in on the plan to get even with Dick. Lilly of course was all for it, even adding her own brand of justice. Wallace was great, he stood up to Lilly, still does actually, calls her on her bullshit, Lilly for her part has never been able to figure out what to make of him. Logan and I had been dating officially for about three days. Three whole days and nothing had gone wrong, I should have known it was too good to last. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 17	#16	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/15/06 21:41:48) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Friday turned out to be a beautiful day, just as wed hoped. The whole thing was so elaborate, so well planned, that even bad weather would have thrown the whole thing off. Thank God for small miracles. Dick had returned to school the day before, and while he never did anything overt, when I walked into school that Friday morning, Slut was spray painted across my locker. Logan absolutely freaked when he saw it. Ill be the first to admit I dont think Dicks the brightest crayon in the box, but I never took him for down right suicidal. Spray-painting Logans girlfriends locker? That was an act of absolute stupidity, which is probably why Logan stepped the revenge plan up a notch. The weather was absolutely beautiful, the waves were high, a perfect day for the Surf competition currently taking place at Dog Beach. Dick was number forty-three on todays roster, so we had awhile to wait. Everyone was here, the entire school having been let out early because of the competition. Well okay not everyone was here, I didnt see Weevil in the crowd, but anyone who was important to Dick was here, which was the point. Everyone would see him fall. Logan and Lilly sat on towels beside me, Lilly in a bikini and Logan in board shorts. We were all slathered in sunscreen, as were most of the people here today. The sun was beating harshly down on us, even without moving we were all sweating profusely. Logan moved closer to me, offering me his bottle of water as we watched the competitors. You ready for this? Hes up soon. Logans voice was quiet, barely a whisper next to my ear, lips brushing the shell, sending shivers down my spine. Im ready. I spoke quietly. I turned towards him and pressed our lips together. Kissing Logan would never get old. Showtime. He smiled softly, brushing my hair back from my face, before slowly getting to his feet. He made his way towards the judges, not hurrying, taking his own sweet time, couldnt have anyone getting suspicious. I knew what he was telling them, that Dick had been suspended from school for drug use. He was a chronic drug user, GHB, and hed test positive for pretty much any drug they cared to test him for. The judges were conferring, and I could see when they decided to pull Dicks entry. Of course we planned it right down to the last second. Dick was already in the water and they couldnt call him out of the water. Hed surf his wave, do his best, and still be disqualified, pending a drug test of course. That was only the beginning. I watched eagerly as Dick tried to get his feet under him on the board. The wax apparently wasnt working so well, as his foot went out from underneath him, sliding awkwardly off the side of the board. Dick fell forward, smashing his nose on the board, before tumbling into the water. Poor Dick looks like his pretty face wouldnt be the same. The big thing I learned in chemistry class this week? A hair shampoo for punk rockers with the three-foot Mohawks, eraser, the chemical properties dissolved wax, but only when wet. Slather the stuff on a surf board, let it dry and it wouldnt feel any different than the regular board, right up until the point it got wet and ate the wax away. Dick had just been the recipient of a rather nasty practical joke. They hauled him out of the water; his nose was bleeding rather profusely, split across the bridge from where hed landed. Hed also managed to break his board somehow, which was more than Id hoped for. I stood up and started clapping, that performance was a perfect ten in my opinion. I waited, the timing had to be perfect, before I slowly lifted my hair off the back of my neck. It was the signal. I watched Seth come rushing forward towards Dick, flapping his hands, and wiping tears from his cheeks. The one thing I could say for sure about Seth, he was one hell of an actor. I watched as he threw himself at Dick, wrapping his arms around him before his loud voice reached me. Oh my god Sweetheart! Are you okay? Look at your beautiful face! Oh honey! Seth babbled on pressing kisses over Dicks stunned face. Dicks hands came up, presumably to push Seth away. The shocking part came next, shocking even me; I stood in stunned disbelief as Seth kissed Dick straight on the mouth. Lips pressed to lips, and Dick? Dick wasnt moving away. Dicks hands were tightening on Seths shoulders. Dick was pulling Seth closer. My mouth fell open. Dick was pulling Seth closer, where was the freak out? Where was the and there it was. Dick quickly shoved Seth away, staring at him for a moment, before wiping his mouth slowly, his eyes lit up with a slow burn. It was an absolutely beautiful start to my Friday. Dick ignored Seth where he had fallen as Seth babbled on about their secret, how he knew that he wasnt supposed to tell anyone, but he was just so concerned. If I didnt know better I would have said that Dick and Seth were carrying on a secret affair. Dick moved towards the first aid table, set up for accidents such as this. I nodded to Amanda who was working the booth; she nodded quickly back, before going quickly to work on Dicks nose. I could hear him cursing from here. Shed apparently used iodine for infection and super glue to keep the wound closed until he could see his family doctor. She gave him two pills and told him they were for the pain. Good old trusting Dick. He took them dry, swallowing them down, before lying down on the cot provided. In less than an hour Dick would be out cold and the real fun could begin. Drugging Dick? Best idea weve ever had. Well, the best idea Logans ever had. Poetic justice if you ask me. I remember feeling guilty over these tactics, promising myself if we pulled this off Id never drink again, Id never do anything wrong, Id be a good girl from now on and avoid parties. Then I remembered I was sort of dating Logan and those promises flew right out the window. The board had been my idea; the drugging was Logans and what came next? Was all Lilly. We managed to get Dick into the back of Seths van without too much trouble. No one even mentioned us carrying the still unconscious Dick across the sand, everyone turning a blind eye. We dumped him in the back, Logan climbing in behind him; I hurried around to the front to climb into the passenger seat beside Seth. You know where the Casablancas place is? Seth nodded and we were on our way. Lilly was meeting us there, shed left when Dick had fallen to meet up with Beaver and set up the last part of our day of revenge. Beaver was waiting for us at the gate, quickly jumping in the back with Logan for the drive up to the house. We once again struggled to carry Dick into the house. Mr. Casablancas was out of town on his honeymoon, having just married Mrs. C number six. Kendall was a former Laker girl and was making life in the Casablancas home very, very difficult. Dick should really lay off the junk food, his tubby ass is going to weigh three hundred pounds by the time hes thirty. Logan wheezed as he struggled under Dicks weight. Beaver came around the other side, hauling Dick up by the back of his shorts, taking some of the weight off of Logans arms. You should try doing this alone when youre half tanked yourself. Beaver laughed, as they struggled to get him up the stairs. They finally managed to get him up the stairs and into his bed, pulling off his board shorts, only to find he wasnt wearing any underwear. That made things a whole lot simpler. Seth not being shy stripped off his clothes and climbed into bed with Dick. Just make sure you dont shoot my face, I could be famous some day and I dont want this coming back to haunt me. He smiled before burying his face in the crook of Dicks neck, their bodies twined together. Somethings not quite right. I stared at them for a few minutes, before I carefully arranged Dicks legs so that one of them was between Seths, grabbing one of his arms, I flopped it over top of Seths back, resting Dicks hand on the curve of Seths ass. Perfect. Perfect! I quickly began snapping photos from different angles. Done! I said after a few minutes. Seth quickly got up from the bed, putting his clothes on quickly. Hurry up guys, I want to head home and shower, maybe for a couple of days, just being near that jerk makes me feel dirty. He paused for a moment before smirking, and not in the fun Im such a bad boy kind of way. Laughing he made his way out of the bedroom leaving Logan and I alone with Dick. You sure about this? We can stop it now. Logan looked at me and the sincerity in his eyes made my stomach hurt. He was so earnest in wanting to protect my sensibilities. You really think you could stop Lilly once she gets an idea in her head? I laughed out right. Logan must think hes got super powers to be able to stop Lilly when she has her mind set on something. You two can leave the room for a few minutes. Its my turn. Lilly stood leaning against the doorway, a bottle of wine in one hand, and a bottle of lube in the other. I got a sudden flash of what she had planned. No Lilly. You cant do THAT. I moved towards her, but she turned her cold hard stare on me. Think about it Veronica Mars. If Dick had managed to get you alone, even for five minutes, drugged and unconscious, what would he have done? I was drugged that night too, its my right, hes got to pay, and hes got to learn not to do that kind of shit. This way hell know what it feels like. Her evil smile made an appearance and I felt Logan shudder next to me. Lilly was very, very scary. Well meet you downstairs. I nodded at her and grabbed Logans hand, practically dragging him from the room. Were not really going to let her do that to Dick are we? He sounded confused, a little lost, but the disgust came across clear in his voice. Shes right Logan. If he doesnt learn his lesson now, hes never going too. I couldnt live with myself if that happened to someone else. I just couldnt. He pulled me closer, hugging me tight as I buried my face in his shirt, breathing in his scent. What did you want to do when this is all over? Logans voice was muffled against my hair, I could feel the vibrations of his voice against my scalp and it made me shiver. Alone time. I just want to be somewhere no one else is. He stiffened slightly and I quickly amended my statement. No one else but you. He relaxed against me, smiling into my hair. Sounds good. Well ditch the rest of the gang and go do the you and me thing. One of these days youre going to give me an answer on wearing my pin. He was mock serious, but I could hear the underlying doubt in his voice. He still wasnt sure I wasnt trying to be just like Lilly. Lilly slowly stepped from the room, a self-satisfied smile on her face. She held the bottle of wine in her hands, but the lube was missing, left behind as evidence. Done and Doner. Lets get out of here. She sashayed away from us, and I couldnt help but shake my head. Lilly, Lilly wasnt afraid of anything. Revenge had its purposes, I felt better for the whole thing, and I managed not to feel guilty at all for leaving Dick alone with Lilly. He really did deserve it. Logan and I got our alone time. Needless to say, once again, I got more than I bargained for. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 18	#17	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/15/06 21:43:05) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	The joke was definitely on Dick. I still cant believe that Lilly did what she did. I mean a wine bottle? And the truly scary part was that Lilly kept the wine bottle. She had plans for it. Ulterior motives. Lilly had a plan. All I could remember thinking was, oh lord help us all. Logan of course didnt do what Id expected. We went in the opposite direction of my house. He had a surprise for me, and oh boy what a surprise. Where are we going? I could hear the uncertainty in my voice as we turned the corner heading away from my house. Youll see. Logan had a small smirk playing around the edges of his lips, he shot me a look, then blew me a kiss and I couldnt help myself. I giggled. I knew about half way to our destination where we were going. Logans house, it was the only thing in this direction. Your house? Thats the big surprise? I put a little bit of pique into my voice, pretending to be annoyed. Well, my pool house to be exact. No disturbances. Logan leered at me and I felt my heart start to race. Id been thinking about the back seat of the Xterra for, far too long. Oh really? What type of girl do you think I am Logan? I laughed outright at the look on his face. I thought wed hold hands and cuddle, talk, you know, all the girly stuff you girls seem to love. Where is your mind Veronica Mars? he snarked at me. In your pants? I questioned sweetly causing him to choke on the air he was trying to breathe. Score one for me! Logan parked the Xterra and we both got out. He came around to my side of the vehicle and grabbed my hand, kissing me softly before leading me towards the back of the house. I saw the pool house first and my heart sped up. We were moving towards something, something more, something I might actually remember tomorrow. Showtime. We were barely through the door before he had me pressed up against the wall, hands on my shoulders, lips pressed to mine as he kissed the breath from me. His tongue parted my lips with ease and I was lost. Lost in the feel of his lips on mine, his hands massaging my shoulders, the press of his hard body against mine as he ground against me. I could feel his hardness pressing against me, digging into my abdomen as he thrust, he wanted me, wanted all of me. I couldnt stop the moan surging up from my chest, breaking against his lips like a wave crashing on the rocks. Hard, merciless, helpless to resist, I was drawn into him, moaning against his mouth as his hand moved down to cup my breast, fingers tweaking my nipple. I arched against him, pressing my groin against his leg, trying to get some friction, I pressed harder and he pulled away. I blinked hazy eyes up into his smiling ones, I couldnt understand why hed pulled away. Theres a bed right over there, think we should move? Get more comfortable? He smiled a bit as the annoyance crept across my features. I reached my hands up to pull him back down to me, but he laughed and danced away. Bed, comfy, snuggling! He laughed, grabbing my hands and pulling me reluctantly away from the wall. Logan spun us around, twirling me until I was laughing and dizzy, pressing his lips to mine, resting our foreheads together a moment later. I love the way you laugh. Before I had a chance to respond, he pressed me back against the bed, settling over me, face serious. We dont have to do anything you dont want to. You can set the pace. He smiled gently as I felt myself relax. I hadnt even realised Id tensed up. I grinned, pressing my hands against his shoulders, pushing him away, disappointment flashed across his face as he moved away, but I kept pushing, my hands on his shoulders, laying him back across the bed. I climbed into his lap, settling against his groin, against the hardness I felt there. Heres good. I laughed into his mouth as I kissed him again, feeling his smile against my lips. I wasnt quite sure what I was doing, I didnt remember the first time, had nothing but our fumbling sessions in the back of the Xterra to go on. I fought hard to not just blurt out the truth, that I didnt remember our night together. I didnt want to hurt Logans feelings. I ground down as he thrust up, my mind going black at the white-hot arc of pleasure snaking through me, taking my breath away. My fingers fumbled at the buttons of his shirt for a minute before he gently brushed my hands away, undoing the buttons slowly, Logan kept his eyes fixed on mine as he shrugged the shirt off. I burst out laughing at the smirk on his face. That one too. I pointed to the t-shirt hed been wearing underneath. Smug bastard. His laughter wrapped around me as he tugged the shirt off, and I was now sitting in the lap of a half naked Logan. Turn about is fair play Sugarpuss. I could feel his hands tugging at the bottom hem of my shirt. Turn about was definitely fair play. I slapped his hands away, giving him a smug look of my own. I cross my arms and pulled the shirt quickly over my head, revealing my white lace bra. Logans hand came up, one finger trailing down the soft curve of my breast, That one too. He smirked at me. My hands shook as I reached behind me to remove my bra. I was now half naked sitting on a half naked Logan. I felt the blush creeping across my face, down my throat, taking up residence across my breasts. I felt hotter as Logans eyes travelled downwards with the slowly spreading redness, ending up on my breasts. I could feel my nipples hardening under his gaze. The flush on my skin got deeper and I couldnt help myself, I brought my hands up to cover my breasts, the embarrassment taking over. Logan grabbed my hands and shook his head. No, please dont, youre beautiful. The hushed tone of his voice almost making me feel like it was true. Small breasts and all? I couldnt help but ask. I looked nothing like Lilly. I dont think I ever will. Finally tearing his gaze away from my chest he met my eyes, a slow smile sneaking across his features, Theyre perfect. Youre perfect. I yelped in surprise as he flipped me over, settling on top of me. I know I said you could control the pace, but, he cut himself off as he lowered his head to my chest, taking one of my nipples into his mouth. White light flashed behind my fluttering eyelids. I love the way his mouth feels on me. He scraped his teeth gently over my nipple and I was flying. Frantically pushing at him, his jeans, my jeans, our clothes disappearing in a matter of seconds. I gasped as I felt him slide harshly against me, slick steel against my wet opening. My head flew back and I was ready. Ready for more, ready to remember. I opened my eyes and met Logans intent gaze. Condom? Veronica we dont, I mean, I know, we are you sure? His voice was choked, hesitant as his fingers slid against the side of my face brushing my hair off my forehead. Condom. I said more sure now, not answering his question. Logan moved away, fumbling in the bedside drawer, finally coming back towards me with a foil package in his fingers. He tore it open with his teeth, his eyes never leaving mine, one hand slipping down between us. Thats talent, being able to put a condom on one handed. I joked weakly. I could barely breathe as I felt his erection nudge gently at my opening. Our eyes were locked as he began to slowly slide inside, words lost in that moment. He took a deep breath and kissed me, thrusting harshly inside. I arched my back as the pain lanced through me, agony radiating up from my groin. Itll only hurt for a minute sweetheart, breathe through the pain. He kissed my lips as my mouth gaped open in shock. Imagine my surprise. Having sex with my almost boyfriend, thinking I wasnt a virgin anymore, and finding out differently. I did some research after that, on GHB and its side effects. One of the most common being sore abdominal muscles and urinary tract infections. I felt stupid, idiotic, foolish for believing Logan could have slept with me in the state I was in at Shelly Pomroys party. I should have known Logan would never do something like that. Im just glad it didnt ruin everything. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 19	#18	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/17/06 13:44:12) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	I can still remember how gentle he was. Arms trembling, body held still so he wouldnt hurt me, and all I could do was lay there frozen in shock. I admit he handled it better than you would expect. Logans constantly surprising me, theres a depth to him most people dont get to see. His breath panted hot in my ear, as I lay frozen. We hadnt slept together at Shellys party. We hadnt had sex. I was still a virgin, or at least I was up until two minutes ago. I ached, not really pain, just a dull ache that burned, throbbed, prompted me to wiggle just a little to ease the sensation. I felt Logan groan, hips thrusting as he lost what little bit of control he was retaining. Logan whispered softly against my ear, Im sorry, and he was moving, slowly thrusting out, before gently pushing back in, mindful of my discomfort. My vision went white, as he pressed deeper, entered me fully. I hadnt realised he wasnt all the way in. He was still whispering, over and over repeating Im sorry as he moved, bucking against me, still soft, gentle, tender, fingers stroking my shoulders as he held me close. I felt him press away from me; upper body lifting, and I couldnt stop my hands from clutching at him, trying to pull him closer. Lips pressing to mine, he kissed me tenderly as he continued to thrust, tenderly; I knew he didnt want to hurt me. Hed been harsher with his fingers, thrusting deep, hard, hitting that spot that made me keen with pleasure. More, I whispered against his lips and he pulled back, I could see the uncertainty on his face as his eyes searched mine. Whatever he found there seemed to reassure him because he pulled me closer, pressing a fast hard kiss to my lips before burying his face in the crook of my neck. Then he thrust, hard, deep, harder still, and I couldnt think at all. It hurt, I could feel the pain in brief flashes as moved faster, pounding into me as his breath beat against my shoulder, panting on each inward motion, tandem, I couldnt breathe at all. My hair is sticking to my forehead in wispy little strands, making my skin itch. Logans abdomen is slick with sweat as he moves over me, in me, slick and sliding against me, Im so lost in him, in the feel of him. My nipples ache, theyre hard and peaked, rubbing against the coarse hair on his chest, making them burn with every motion of his body. I feel like Im burning alive. God Veronica, his voice stutters out as he slows his pace down, building us higher. Im still clutching at him, wanton, I know Im going to be embarrassed about it the moment were done but I cant bring myself to care right now. No, I moan out, Im aching for more, anything, all of it, all of him. Harder Logan, please. My voice breaks on a breathless sob as he complies, his lips finding mine, face tense and straining as he struggles to last, struggles to hold on. I can feel his hands moving down my body and Im not sure oh. Hes, his fingers are oh. My back is arching without my permission, arching against him as Im flying free, away, Logans gone, theres nothing now but the sensations pounding through me and Im lost in it, gone, away. In the distance I can hear his groan, feel him stiffen against me as he orgasms into the latex covering him. I want to feel it, feel him coming with me, but Im too lost in the sensation, too lost in the feel of my own body spinning out of control. Weve had sex a couple thousand times since, but that first time? I actually lost consciousness. I was totally gone. I knew I loved him before, but I wasnt sure how he felt about me. Sometimes Im still not sure. I mean sure, I know he likes me, obviously, and he tells me all the time he loves me. But theres this look he gets sometimes, when were together, in that way, you know sexually, he gets this look in his eye, on his face that tells me hes not there with me. I know it could just be the heat of the moment, but I cant help but wonder if hes thinking of someone else. I know. Shut up Veronica, he loves you, its obvious, or at least thats what Lilly tells me all the time. But following someone like Lilly, shes a tough act to follow. I awoke a short time later, wrapped in Logans arms. I couldnt help myself; I blushed from the roots of my hair to the tips of my toes. I moved closer, inhaling his scent, noticing that he smelt vaguely of me. You smell like me. I whispered into his skin. My blushed deepened as I realised the inanity of that comment. I should. Logan was smiling down at me, shifting me so he could reach my lips. He kissed me tenderly, softly, the most gentle kiss hed bestowed on me so far in our short almost relationship. Now explain. Why the frozen look? It didnt hurt that much did it? He looked concerned, fear lighting his features. I should have known Logan would catch that. No matter what anyone says, the boy is sharp, missing very little of what goes on around him. I thought I trailed off, unsure of how to continue. You thought what? Veronica? He looked really worried now, and I took a deep breath to fortify myself before telling him the truth. I thought wed slept together at Shellys party. I closed my eyes, humiliated for even thinking such a thing. I knew better. Logan wouldnt take advantage of an unconscious girl. You WHAT? His voice broke over me and I nodded slowly, keeping my eyes closed. Why would you think that Veronica? What I mean, why? His voice stuttered out and around me, I could feel his heart beating at a fast pace against me. Logan was angry. I tried to move away, but he pulled me closer, brushing his hand across my forehead, moving my hair away from my sweaty face. Why would you think I could do something like that? His voice was softer this time, and I relaxed into his arms. I woke up, we were together, and I was sore. I I guess I jumped to conclusions. My voice sounded so little even to me. Id been such an idiot. Do you really think I could do something like that? Is that what you think of me? I could hear the hurt in his voice now, my eyes popping open to meet his confused expression. NO! Logan, Im sorry, I its just the situation; I dont think youre like that. I wouldnt be here now if I thought you were like that. I smiled tentatively but the hurt was still there, shining brightly as he stared down at me. I would never hurt you, Veronica Mars, not when all I want to do is protect you. I couldnt live with myself if I hurt you. His voice was soft, sincere, and I felt ten shades of worse. Im sorry Logan. I should have known, even then. I shouldnt have panicked. Remorse stained the words as they left my mouth. I couldnt tear my gaze away from his. Yes you should have, but we have time to work on those trust issues, yes? He smiled tentatively, leaning down to place a soft kiss on my lips. Does this mean youll wear my pin now? He grinned cockily, making a joke to ease the moment. I dont know I said hesitantly, closing my eyes as if to consider. Veronica Mars! Dont tell me youre one of those girls! You know he leaned closer and whispered, an easy one? He smirked as I tried to hit his shoulder, easily holding me down as he kissed me harder. I told you, the pin is gaudy. I laughed at the mock outraged look on his face. My smile slipped for a moment and I couldnt help but ask, So were okay now? No. Not by a long shot, but we could be. Logan didnt hesitate with his answer, placing another soft kiss on my lips before he bounded out of the bed. His body was practically shaking with excitement. Get up! I have to go rent a billboard. I stared at him confused for a moment before my curiosity got the better of me. Billboard? I questioned. Yep! Announcing to Neptune that one Veronica Mars has consented to being my girlfriend. He grinned cheekily, before hauling me to my feet. Life would never be boring with Logan. Dont you dare! Laughter rippled from my throat as I started pulling on my clothes. My Dad would throw a fit. Which reminds me! We have a dance lesson in an hour, and then dinner with your parents. He smiled at my confused look. We werent supposed to have dinner with my parents till Monday. I phoned your Dad earlier today, asked if we could do dinner tonight instead of Monday. Theyre expecting us at seven. Why today instead of Monday? I couldnt remember if wed made any plans for Monday, other than plastering the hallway with the nude photos of Dick and Seth. Monday is a surprise, which I already had approved by both your mother and your father. So get moving! He clapped his hands before grabbing me and swinging me up in his arms. Wet lips descended on mine and he buzzed me quickly on the mouth, laughing as I pulled away in disgust. EW! You spit all over my never mind. I laughed as he arched an eyebrow. I had his saliva in a few more interesting places now. Hopefully we could fit in a shower before the lesson. Things could have gone so much worse. He could have hated me for not trusting him that much, for thinking that he would take advantage of me in that situation. Sweet, trusting, Logan, or you know, not. Dinner was an easy affair, full of light banter and laughter. Logan had managed to find time for a shower after our dancing lesson. Dropping me off at home to shower and change a full hour before dinner, promising hed be back in time. Hed made it, barely. We were sitting in the living room, Logan, Mom, and I on the couch, my Dad in the easy chair, watching some stupid made for T.V. movie. I couldnt concentrate, I kept thinking about the test results sitting in my room. How I havent told my Dad yet, how now would be the perfect time, except it wouldnt because of Logan. But I could hand Dad the results and not say what they were, he couldnt yell at me for doing the test early, not in front of Logan, at least I hoped he wouldnt yell at me in front of Logan. I squeezed Logans hand gently and got up, heading towards my bedroom, towards the papers that confirmed I was a Mars. I took a deep fortifying breath as I headed back out into the living room, papers clutched in my hand. I wordlessly handed them to my Dad. Whats this? Another A from my genius daughter? Dad laughed at me, face only turning serious when he saw my sober expression. He glanced down at the papers, his eyes shooting up to mine, shock, anger, and relief warring for dominance across his face. How? Everyone else in the room was forgotten. I couldnt wait. I had to know, so I ordered an online test. My voice was breathless, waiting for his reaction. A loud whoop of joy made me start in fright, Dad leapt out of his seat swinging me into his arms and spinning me around until I was dizzy. We both laughed, he was kissing my cheeks and hugging me so hard I could barely breathe. Someone going to share the good news? Moms voice broke into our celebration and Dad finally let me go, practically flinging the papers at my mother. Logans eyes met mine in confusion and I shook my head, letting him know Id tell him later. Moms joyous shouts joined my Dads and they hugged, before turning to me, hugging me close. I looked up in time to see the front door close as Logan headed out into the night. I kissed both my parents on the cheeks before rushing after him. Logan! My voice came out shrill, hurting my own ears, but it made him pause on my front walk, turning slowly around to face me. You didnt have to do that while I was here. His voice was gruff; hed known exactly what was in the papers Id handed to my Dad. I know, Im sorry, I just I didnt want him to yell. I smiled at him as he walked closer to me. You should be in there with them celebrating. He smiled as he finally reached me, pressing his lips softly to my forehead, arms coming around me to hold me close. And you should come back with me. I want to celebrate with my two favourite men. I smiled up into his face, and pressed our lips together. Soft, sweet, chaste kiss, before tugging him after me. Im thinking sundaes all around. I laughed at his horrified expression. Oh god, I wont be able to eat anything for a week if I try to keep up with you! I swatted at him, but he easily dodged me. Im kidding. Are you sure Veronica? He stopped for a moment, pulling on my hand to stop our forward momentum. Im sure. I smiled softly before tugging again. Favourite men huh? He laughed as he followed me back into the house. It could have been a disaster telling my father in front of Logan. It wasnt. I hadnt seen my father smile that brightly in a long time. We were almost like a family. Happy, carefree, eating ice cream with fattening toppings. I can still picture the surprise on Logans face when we sat down to eat our Sundaes like a family. I could tell he wasnt used to the togetherness my family shared. Life? Was finally looking up. I had Logan, I was officially a Mars, and Duncan had started dating a girl named Meg. Things were almost normal again. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 20	#19	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/20/06 16:22:24) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Monday had the potential to be a raging disaster. Logan and I had printed out the pictures on my brand new photo printer. Theyd turned out better than wed hoped. The hallway at school looked like it had brand new wallpaper, right up until you looked closely and saw Seths naked ass, and Dicks sleeping face. Poor little Dick, I think we may have broken him. The howling laughter echoed down the hallway, looks like the entire school had now seen the photographs. After Dicks performance on Friday during the Seth kiss, and then the subsequent knocking Seth to the ground, it was a logical conclusion most of the student body came too. They were obviously witnessing a lovers spat. Complete with over the top dramatics, and blackmail material. Ah the soap opera that was Neptune High. We all waited in anticipation, Dick hadnt shown up to school yet. I held my breath when I saw Beaver walk through the front doors and gripped Logans hand harder. This was it. The moment wed been waiting for. Dick walked through the doors like he owned the place. Anyone who didnt know him probably wouldnt have noticed his walk. The slight awkward way he was moving down the hall. I could see the moment he noticed the pictures. Noticed the stares being directed in his direction. Anger flashed across his face, then mortification, then a pure unadulterated rage. He was playing the part perfectly, like hed read the script before hand. I knew Dick could be trusted to be predictable. Heading in my direction, I felt Logan grip my hand harder, letting me know he was there for support during this confrontation. You BITCH! Dick screamed. I didnt even flinch. I actually shocked myself at the cool I was maintaining. I arched my eyebrow, a patented Logan smirk turning up the corner of my mouth, as I waited for him to say more. You did this! You you Dicks words stuttered to a stop as his face turned bright red, a vein started throbbing in his temple. Careful Dick, you wouldnt want to strain your vocabulary. I mocked; the vein in his head was totally fascinating. The angrier he got the faster it beat. You CUNT! I could feel Logan tense beside me, but I squeezed his hand, letting him know I wanted to handle this. Hurts dont it? I kept my voice low, trying to sound vaguely threatening. At my whopping height of five feet tall, it was a little difficult to intimidate the big boys. Waking up and not knowing what happened. Being sore in all the wrong places. Feels like a hangover from hell, but its not. Is it Dick? My mouth firmed as I remembered waking up next to Logan. I know waking up to Logan wasnt a bad thing. But thinking Id lost my virginity and didnt even remember it? That was bad, and that was Dicks fault. His mouth tightened but his eyes finally shifted from mine. I could see it now, lurking in his eyes, the thing Id been looking for. Guilt. I could see practically the entire school watching us, trying to overhear our conversation, but Id deliberately kept my voice low. This wasnt a conversation for everyone to overhear. This was between us. Feeling guilty Dick? Cat got your tongue? I baited him, waiting for him to blow. I could see him weighing his words carefully, eyes shifting to meet Logans gaze and he nodded imperceptibly. Im sorry, he muttered out. I almost didnt hear him. What was that Dick? I dont think I heard you right. I needed to hear him say it out loud. I needed him to realise, no, I needed him to admit hed done something wrong. Im sorry I put the GHB into your drink at Shelly Pomroys party. The words came out rushed and clipped together all on one long breath. But hed finally admitted to doing something wrong. It was a step in the right direction. The pictures will be down by lunch. I nodded at him and moved away, Logan still clinging to my hand. I stopped halfway down the hall and turned around, meeting Dicks gaze from where he hadnt moved, But Dick? If I hear about something like this again I let my words trail off as his face turned bleach white. I was understood, Dick wouldnt be drugging another girl at a party. Not while I was around anyway. Justice. Its a funny thing isnt it? A double edged sword, I got even with Dick, but I showed a part of myself Im not sure I should be proud of. The part of me that was just like Lilly. If Ive been relating the details right, then you should understand that I wanted to be like Lilly. Right up until I managed to be just like her and then I wasnt so sure thats who I wanted to be. It took something very silly for me to realise that being Lilly? Wasnt all it was cracked up to be. Logan dragged me to another 09er party. Hed said something about conquering my fear, not letting anyone else win, being strong. Or something along those lines, I was too busy quaking in my sandals to actually listen to a word he said. My nervousness had slowly faded away when Lilly had walked up beside me, linking our arms and pulling me away from Logan. I glanced back over my shoulder, his smile reassuring me. It seemed like hours ago, maybe it was hours ago. Id finally given in and had a little bit to drink. Logan had gone to the bar to get every drink that hed placed in my hand. Hes trying to allay my fears, and I have to admit to myself its working. I couldnt remember seeing Lilly in awhile, so I patted Logans hand to get his attention, whispering in his ear that I was going to find Lilly. He kissed me softly on the cheek before he nodded, letting go of my waist reluctantly. Searching for Lilly in a house full of boys when I was totally sober was difficult enough. Searching for Lilly in a strange house full of boys when I was half drunk was next to impossible. I couldnt help but feel hurt that shed ditched me, when shed known how nervous I was. I could hear her voice, coming through an open window. The strident tones of some guy with her, I moved closer to hear better, wanting to make sure she was okay. If Im honest with myself, I really wanted to know what or who had dragged her outside the party. Weevil. Look Blondie. I know you dont want to be seen in public with me. Thats fine. I understand the whole different sides of the zip code thing. Calling me out in the middle of the night to an 09er party? Not the brightest idea youve ever had. Weevils voice was gentle, almost teasing. I could hear Lilly sniffling light. She sounded like she was crying. So Im not bright? Lillys tone was defensive and I could now hear the tears clearly. Lilly Kane was crying. The shocking part was that Lilly Kane was crying over Weevil. Dont put words in my mouth. You want to fight, well fight, you want to cry, we can do that too. Just spit out what youre trying to say so I can get out of here before someone sees me. Weevils voice had gone from gentle to slightly angry. So this wasnt one of my better ideas. Lillys voice was muffled. I could hear a wet sound, and blushed. I heard a zipper go down and I bolted. I did not want to hear Lilly and Weevil having sex. Lilly reappeared a few minutes later, slightly dishevelled, eyes red, even her nose was splotchy. I quickly headed in her direction herding her into the bathroom. We need to fix your makeup. I said without preamble, not letting on Id heard part of her conversation. I wont be seeing Weevil again. Her voice sounded slightly sad. Id never heard Lilly sound sad before. Not over a guy at any rate. Youre disappointed? I asked questioningly, I wasnt quite sure what to say. No way! Lilly tried to make her voice sound upbeat but she failed miserably. He wouldnt have been able to handle my fabulous self for much longer anyway. Move on, trade up, right? She finally met my eyes and I knew. Lilly Kane actually liked Weevil Navarro. Right. My voice was tentative, as I gently rubbed her shoulder. Im sorry Lilly. I offered the apology, hoping it would do something. Nothing to be sorry for, Veronica Mars. Lets go drink, dance, and be merry! She bounced to her feet, her momentary sadness seemingly forgotten. Can I be Sue? Im not sure I could pull off being Mary. I quipped quickly, trying to make her smile. It worked, she laughed at my antics, just like she always does. You can be whoever you want to be Veronica Mars. Just dont try to be me. Sometimes its not all its cracked up to be. With that last bout of honesty I felt something Id never felt before. I felt sorry for Lilly. Wed made our way back to where Logan was sitting. Hed taken one look at Lillys red rimmed eyes and had known something was wrong. Id waved him off, and then proceeded to join Lilly in getting rip roaring drunk. Skunked I think is the preferred term now a-days with the young folk. Lilly and I had wandered to a deserted corner of the party. Neither one of us could stand under our own power; we were leaning heavily on each other, trying to maintain our balance on the gently moving couch. At least I think its moving. Youve got it pretty sweet, Veronica Mars. Lillys voice was soft next to me, and I struggled to turn my head in her direction. Whys that Lilly Kane? I giggled out. Your parents know you exist. Even when they didnt know you really belonged to both of them, they still knew you existed. Lillys voice was melancholy, dripping with depression. Dont be an idiot Lilly. Your parents know you exist. I patted her knee gently, laying my head back on the couch, maybe that would stop the room from moving around on me. Nope! Saint Duncan exists, Im merely here to provide entertainment, and a wild contrast to their only son. Lilly laughed self deprecatingly, suddenly she sounded way to sober. They love you Lilly, they just dont understand you. I tried being consoling but the motion of the room was getting in the way, Im pretty sure Im going to throw up if it doesnt stop soon. Do you understand me, Veronica Mars? Do you really? Lillys head tipped over onto my shoulder, her breath felt hot against my skin. Sometimes Im not even sure I understand myself. Of course I understand you! BFF remember? I linked our hands together and pulled her closer, trying to stave off the nausea for at least a few more minutes. BFF, I remember. Always and forever right? Lilly sounded so lost. Right. I agreed quietly, closing my eyes, but quickly opening them as the spinning got worse. Lilly stood from the couch, pulling me with her, catching me as I stumbled. Lets go find that boyfriend of yours. Enough of the poor, poor pitiful Lilly act. She smiled at me and I couldnt help but smile back. Lilly always made me smile. I love you Lilly, Sisters forever remember? Whether with love or blood, doesnt matter, sisters forever. I could hear the slur in my voice, but it only made Lilly laugh. Thats right. Sisters forever, and on that note, I have a piece of advice for you. She leaned in closer like she was going to impart the biggest secret of all. Wasnt how this whole thing started? I couldnt remember. Youll always be more fabulous than me Veronica. Just because you arent afraid to be who you really are, remember that when you look in the mirror. Logans arms came around me, holding me steady as Lilly placed a soft kiss on my cheek. Later guys, dont have too much fun without me! With a wave of her fingers Lilly was gone. What was that about? Logan whispered into my ear. Im not sure. Maybe Ill figure it out when Im sober. I slurred out, trying and failing to turn around in his arms. Lets get you to bed Mars, before you fall on your face. Logan laughed, picking me up gently in his arms. The world tilted and I could feel the colour draining from my face. Bathroom first. I mumbled, snuggling closer to feel the laughter vibrating through his chest. For the second time in less than a year I woke up not knowing where I was, the light coming from the wrong direction yet again. I was still wearing my bra and panties, and there was a masculine arm wrapped around me. Id slept with Logan Echolls. Feedback
Ms Trixx	Part 21	#20	[-]
Posts: 57 (06/25/06 21:28:17) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	This is it boys and girls! The end of Secrets! Please remember that there is still Logan's POV and Lilly's POV to come... so this isn't the end... other things will become clear soon enough. I'll be posting the Logan POV and the Lilly pov in the same thread... so keep a look out! ~~~ Waking up next to Logan is always an experience. Waking up with Logan the morning after with the hangover from hell was something entirely different. Through the pounding in my head, the queasiness in my stomach, it was still kind of sweet. Logan was understanding. I couldnt breathe, Im sure thats what woke me up. My lungs were slowly being squeezed to the point of death. The tight pain across my chest jerking me from the sleep of the unconscious, my eyes jerking wide open as I scrambled out of the bed towards the bathroom, falling to my knees in my haste. Straight ahead Veronica, the bathroom lights already on. Logans sleep muffled voice came from behind me as I struggled to my feet to make it to the bathroom in time. Bare minutes into my retching, Logans hands came around me, pulling my hair away from my face, holding it in a loose pony tail as he rubbed soothing circles across my back. I was pale and shaky; sweat beading across my forehead and upper lip as I struggled to contain my heaving stomach. When I finished Logan handed me a wrapped toothbrush and a glass of water. He waited patiently not saying a word as I brushed the foul taste out of my mouth, then handed me two aspirin. He took my hand and led me back to the bed, gently laying me down before spooning behind me. Logans fingers brushed my hair off my face, his lips close to my ear. Feel better now? I shivered at the feel of his breath brushing over the tiny hairs behind my ear. Not really. Im never drinking again. My voice was quiet, slightly choked as I groaned into my pillow. Chuckling behind me, Logans arms tightened, before he placed a soft kiss at the nape of my neck. Its not really you Veronica. I stiffened in his hold, I couldnt help it, And what am I Logan? My voice sounded slightly angry, I couldnt help it. Marshmallows and promises. He rolled me over to face him, placing a tender kiss on my lips. Youve always been marshmallows and promises, Mars. Youre not Lilly, youre not this girl youve been pretending to be the past few weeks. I stiffened more against him, but softened when he pressed his lips to mine again. Just be you Veronica, Ill be happy no matter who you are. He smiled gently at me and I felt myself relaxing even more into his arms. And if I am more like Lilly? I couldnt help but ask, Lillys words from the night before coming back to me. Then youre more like Lilly. Logan shrugged before smiling goofily down at me. Ill take you any way I can get you, red satin and all. Logans lips came down on mine, more demanding now, seeking entrance, and I gave in willingly. I pulled away after a few moments. You know well have to talk eventually right? I questioned. Things were too unsettled between us. Of course. Logan mumbled against my lips. Just not now. His hand slid up my torso cupping one breast in his palm. I moaned into his lips unable to help myself. I know, I know, total cop out. Skipping out on the good parts. But theres so much more to this story, more than just sex, love, manipulation and secrets. Yah, I dont believe that either. It all started with a secret. Two secrets really, secrets that changed everything, changed the dynamic of our group, the shape of my life, the shape of my personality. I wasnt sure who I was anymore. Was I Veronica Mars? Or was I a cross between Veronica Mars and Lilly Kane? I guess everyone goes through that as they grow up. That change from youth to adulthood, the struggle to find themselves. My version of the struggle came complete with soap opera storylines, angst, intrigue, and secrets. It all came back to secrets. Monday at school started the same as every other Monday at school, with one exception. Logan and I walked through the doors of Neptune High holding hands. It wasnt a big thing; it wasnt a major life altering change. Holding hands didnt have the power to change the universe. Lilly nodded knowingly to us as we passed her, smiling that secretive smile she was so good at. The one that said, I have a secret, a good one. What are we doing after school? Logans voice startled me, my eyes whipped from Lillys smiling face to Logans Cheshire grin. Want to go to the beach? I suggested, spinning my lock, and opening my locker. I had to let go of his hand, which didnt feel right at all. Logan being in tune with me placed his now free hand at the small of my back. Want to try surfing? He laughed at my look of disdain. Im kidding. Why dont I ask Dad if we can borrow the boat? Get a few of us together and go for a cruise? He smiled softly, placing a kiss on my forehead as I shut my locker and turned towards him. Sounds good. Who? We linked hands again and started moving towards his locker. Duncan and Meg, Lilly, he paused for a moment, thinking, maybe Dick and the Beav? Definitely not a well-rounded group. Sure sounds good. You talk to the rest Ill talk to Lilly and well give it a go. I grinned when his smile turned lascivious. Give it a go huh? How about we skip inviting anyone else and well work on that ourselves? Before I knew what was happening, Logan had me pressed up against his locker, mouth hard on mine as he kissed me breathless. Break it up you two! Lillys voice cut through the haze Logan and I were in. He slowly lifted his mouth from mine, never breaking eye contact. All right, thats enough, youre turning me on. Lillys laugh cut through the tension, and Logan and I smiled. Then our nefarious plan is working. I winked at Lilly over Logans shoulder, before extricating myself from his arms. Remember to ask everyone. I laughed when Logan groaned and banged his head against the locker. Be a good boy. I gently kissed his cheek before turning back to Lilly. We linked arms and started walking towards homeroom. So spill Veronica Mars. Up for a boat trip after school? I deliberately played dumb; sometimes it worked, but usually not on Lilly. Im always up for boating, dont play dumb Veronica Mars. Lilly laughed. Logan. You. Alone all night in a bedroom, spill. Lilly and I stopped just outside of our homeroom. Not here. My voice was quiet as I looked around. Well talk later. Alone. I smiled slightly before leaning closer. Ive got a secret. A good one. I grinned when Lilly laughed. Im sure you do Veronica Mars. Or at least you better. We were still laughing when we stepped through the doors. Everything was set and ready to go. Mr. Echolls had let Logan take the boat, wed stocked up on provisions on the way to the dock, and we were ready. Everyone was supposed to meet us at the Dock. I hadnt realised that Lilly was bringing someone else. You ready? Logans voice broke into my reverie. I couldnt help but wonder if this was such a good idea. Duncan and I we werent friends anymore. I wasnt sure if we could be friends anymore, even if I did know the real reason hed broken up with me. Things couldnt be anything but strange. Ready as Ill ever be. I smiled at Logan, trying to reassure him. I knew it wasnt working when he immediately took my hand and gave it a squeeze. Everythings going to be fine Veronica. Youll see. He leaned in and gently placed a kiss on my forehead. Lets go. We both got out of the Xterra and made our way towards the boat, where Lilly and a guy were standing, the other 09ers standing well away from them. I saw why when they turned toward us and I was faced with Weevil. He smiled slightly at my shocked expression, ducking his head before grinning outright. I turned towards Lilly taking in her pleased expression, her devious smile, the way she casually brushed against Weevils arm every few seconds. They werent holding hands, but it was obvious they were more than friends. Logan went to open his mouth and I squeezed his hand hard, making him look at me. I shook my head slightly, asking him without words to not say anything. I wanted to see how this played out. I wanted to know what Lilly was up too. I couldnt help but remember her tear-stained face, red-rimmed eyes, and runny nose from the night before. Logan nodded slightly, letting me know hed understood. Ready to get this show on the road? His voice was jovial as he clapped his hands together. Were not getting on the boat with him. Dicks voice came out loud and clear. Glaring at Weevil. Weevils mouth opened to reply but I beat him to it. Dick. One word and Dick froze, turning to face me. Lets go. I gave him my best steely look. Watching as he took a deep breath and got on the boat. Everyone else followed suit. I noticed Duncan and Meg for the first time. I remembered her now; she was on the cheerleading squad. They looked cute together. Logan took my hand and led me onto the boat, Weevil and Lilly getting on behind us. This was definitely going to be an interesting boat ride. You may wonder what a boat ride between friends, and semi friends, and not so much friends might have to do with the story. I wasnt sure at that point what was happening. I should have known that Lilly had a plan all along. It started with a game. To say things had been tense since we got on the boat would have been an understatement. Lilly kept trying to lighten the mood, passing drinks around and being Lilly. Logan had turned up the music to ear splitting, as we cruised out into the harbour. Dick was still glaring at Weevil, and Weevil, for his part, hadnt said one word. Okay this is fun. Lillys voice broke into my thoughts, and I turned to stare at her. A small sarcastic smile lit her features. Anyone want to start pulling teeth to make the day complete? She asked with false cheer. I couldnt help but laugh out loud, the tension easing slightly. Lilly always had a way of diffusing any situation or making it worse. Lets play a game! Lilly clapped her hands, bringing the cooler closer to us, passing out coolers. I was hesitant to take mine. Alcohol these days was definitely not my friend. Everyones played I never, I assume? Lillys voice had that lilt to it. The one that shouted she was up to something. We all agreed that we knew how to play the game, and Lilly started us off. Ive never kissed my best friend. Lilly and I laughed as we both took a drink. We could see the boys around us practically salivating at the thought. When? Logans voice was close to my ear. I hadnt realised hed dropped anchor and come to join us. You were there, remember? Homecoming? You dared Lilly to kiss someone in the limo I trailed off as I saw comprehension dawn on his face. Ahhh, a little girl on girl, never gets old. He smiled before quickly pecking me on the lips. Ive never had sex where anyone could see. I took a drink and watched as everyone but Meg and Duncan drank with me. And where was that Veronica Mars, you vixen! Lillys voice came sweet and bubbly as I blushed to the roots of my hair. Logans Xterra with the door open. Logans cheek rubbed against mine as he pressed our faces together. Logan was in such a hurry he didnt even close the door. I laughed as he pinched my arm. Weevil and I outside of the party on Friday. Lilly laughed as Dick choked on his cooler. The backseat of Lillys SUV at the beach party a month or so ago. Weevils voice sounded amused as he moved closer to Lilly. Hed finally spoken, and ah, such words to start with. I could feel my face get even hotter. Id been the one to catch them that time. We went a few more rounds, getting drunk with every question asked. We were all picking stupid silly things that we all had done, or that wed all known the others had done. Ive never told someone a secret that wasnt true. Lillys voice broke slightly on the last words, her eyes meeting mine as she slowly raised her cooler to her lips and drinking. Explain. My voice was slightly breathy as I stared at Lilly. Which secret hadnt been true, why had she lied at all? Your mom and my dad did date, in high school. It ended there. There was no affair. The pictures that Celeste showed Donut were from their high school prom. She told me the truth, even if she lied to Duncan. I could see the truth in Lillys eyes. Shed lied to me. Ive never lied for my own personal gain. My voice was slightly choked, the game now only between Lilly and I as the others watched on in bemusement. I felt my eyes widen comically as Lilly took another drink. When? I asked, my heart fluttering in my chest. The same lie. I had my reasons, not all of them were for personal gain though. I wanted you to stop mourning Donut, wanted you to smile again. Lilly smiled tremulously. Logans voice came harsh against my ear, breaking me out of the trance I was in. Ive never put my best friends happiness before my own. Logan, Lilly, and Duncan all drank, as I sat there dumfounded. I looked back and forth between them; confusion apparent in my eyes, before I had a chance to question Duncans voice spoke up. Ive never believed the lies my parents told me. Duncan raised his glass to his lips and drank, as did Logan, Lilly, Meg, Beaver, and Dick. Im starting to think this was a conspiracy on all their parts. I couldnt get my mind over the shock that Lilly had lied about the secret. Why had she lied, there had to be a reason. There was always a reason. Ive never set my best friend up with my ex-boyfriend. Lilly drank, and everything was coming clearer. Ive never set my ex-girlfriend up with my best friend. Duncan drank. I felt like a spectator in a ping-pong match. Ive never taken my ex-girlfriends advice on how to land her best friend. Logans hand came up and I felt the bottle meet his lips next to my face. Ive never not wanted my best friend to be happy. Lilly, Duncan, and then Logan all drank. Ive never been involved in a conspiracy. I spoke softly, and raised my glass to my lips. Lillys face was blank as she drank. I watched Logans hand lift, Duncan raise his glass, and Weevil hesitate before taking a large swallow of his drink as well. Ive never not loved Veronica Mars. Logans voice next to my ear, but I watched as Lilly and Duncan both drank. Sometimes a secret is a secret for a reason, and sometimes you just have to come clean. Let the truth be known and let it have its reign. Id been royally played by the master. Lilly had gotten the end that shed wanted. I wasnt sure why Id been played so well. But there you have it. The story of Logan Echolls and Veronica Mars, how we came to be, and how we came to stay. A story started by a secret, and finished by the truth. That day on the boat, I can remember so clearly, was the beginning of everything. The end to the secrets, but the beginning of Veronica Mars, version 2.0. Feedback

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